from wad i remember...~

so many things have happened... its such a pity i wasn't able to write about them all when i had the inspiration too.. seeing as how my computer is dead n all...

but i'll try n depict these evens out again.... from wad i can remember~

5th May 2008

i finally get mom's name inked on my back.... even though mother's day was 6 days away, it was the onli off day i had for that week, so yeah... i remember having a great chat with Meng while he worked on me.. it was cool~ and yes, it hurt... i remembered seeing alot of blood... it wasnt gross or anything though... suprizingly~

did i mentioned it hurt alot?

i remember it feeling good when it was done... seeing ur mother's name on ur back... it felt good~ my onli regret was that i was alone when it was being done~ but its not complete... i've yet to join them... tat'll be in a couple of weeks when this heals over...

6th May 2008

i remember pain... alot of pain... not the kind where u'd roll around screaming in agony... it wasnt that excruciating... but it hurt... nonetheless~

it was the kind of pain where u'd keep still and try not move... the kind where u'd just stand at one spot focusing on something infront of u while u held a straight face... the kind of pain where u'd kringe all of a suddenly when the wind blew a loose thread from ur shirt straight into the pores of ur back...

i remember standing very still at work.... hunching over the counter, not moving an inch... keeping my back faced to the wall, being weary of any object tat came too close to me when i was walkin down the street....

i rememebered the pain very well~

7th May 2008

without sufficent time to recupourate after the inking, i realised it was a horrible decision to get it done when i had work for the next 6 days in a row... i killed alot of kittens to subdue the discomfort... i wanted to tell the mother about it.. i wanted her to see it and give me a big hug... tat would've taken alot of the pain away...

i came home tat night, haggered & exhausted from work ... i put my bag down and sat next to her... She seemed happy..."It was an apropriate time to do it" i thought...

her face changed immediatly.... she didnt say a word.... that.. look... of disappointment....

it didnt help the pain at all....

she went to her room... and that was that~

8th-9th May 2008

i was slaughtering kittens by the hundreds... metephorically speaking of course... they made my throat hurt.. but i didnt care... replacing a lesser pain for a greater one.... didnt see the harm in tat~

at least not till later...

the mother hasnt spoken a word to me... she hasnt replied my text msgs. or my calls... i came home and went to sit by her... she brushed me off~


i pleaded my case, asked her y she was upset... i told that the blood shed was for her.. and all i wanted was her appreciation... i told her i had done nothing wrong... that everyone else would've found this a touching gesture....

she wouldnt even look at me....

10th May 2008

the mother nudged me in my sleep that morning... said there was breakfast in the kitchen... i didnt really reacting much to it at 1st since i was still in a daze.... but after reflecting on it later in the day, i found it most consoling~ i told my friends at work... "hey guess wad! my mom said there was breakfast in the kitchen to me this morning!" they didnt know wad i was so happy about.... i didnt care that they did~



11th May 2008 ( Mother's Day )

i've been bringing her flowers every day of the week... the living room is full of pots and stalks of daisies & chrysanthemums.... today i brought home another pot and a giant lily the BFF bought for my mom, which was ever so thoughtful~ at this point we were sort of on speakin terms.. but she kept sayin she still doesnt like me with tat pouty tone of her's~

i presented her with the bouqet and she gave me a look & asked wad great atrocity i had committed this time to be serenaded with flowers everyday~

i laughed.... and she gave me a hug~

i smoked my last fag tat night...

12th May 2008

now came the judgement of my "3 packs within a week" rendevous~ it was fun killin urself.. i'd admit... but feelin urself dying was not~

i spent my off day coughing and wheezing and hackin up substances of a greenish-yellowy nature.... it was not fun....

with my immune system weakened from the inking, and the weather being as crazy as its always been... the lil sticks of death i put in my mouth were much more harmful then i thought... i was replacing a greater pain for an even bigger one... had i only known... well... i had.... guess i deserved it~

it was fun while it lasted.... but i am never doing it again~ especially when im about to be enlisted... i'll be needin tat extra stamina....

13th May 2008

was suppose to go to work today but i called in sick.. it wasnt gettin any better... and now it developed into a fully fledged FLU~

i feel horrible, the room's too warm so i turn on the fan, then it gets too cold n i start to sneeze... my throat feels numb n everything tastes bad.... i have so much things to do but i can barely stand.... i stumble from room to room like a drunk.... i go to the kitchen to pour a drink... then i fall onto the living room couch for a breather before headin to my room again...

i felt silly doing it.... but it amused me~ stumbling around was kinda morbidly fun.... everyone knows having the flu makes ur body weak & ur mind drozy.... even if u werent, the cold meds would've made sure of it....

i phoned my mom n spoke to her in the most childish of fashions.... i told her i was dying, that i wanted her to come home and pat my butt to sleep so i'd feel better in the morning... she scolded me and told me to pick up my clothes in the living room...



Blahh... mothers~



i almost forgot to put the picture up~


mom says its ugly but she keeps touching it... tsk~

i sit here, now, in my room, with a wad of tissue up my nose, bloggin on my mom's msn-less labtop thinkin wad an asshole i've been these past few days for doing the things i've done... but i have no regrets... i never do..... because i made these choices... n i onli have myself to blame should these choices turn out to be bad ones... it feels good to be able to... decide for yrself~

i want to remember... the things i do, the things i feel.... i want to remember the good times and the bad... the people i met, the places i go to.... i want to remember everything.... and i want others to remember it too~

so i write, when i can...

& i blog, when i can.....

so tat wadever i go thru, i will never forget any moment of it....







so i never forget any moment at all~

the vivo experience & more~

ok so, a lil introduction before i start.. yesterday was my 1st time workin at the vivo counter and i felt like writing so i found some paper n did just tat~

theres so much more stuff that's happened that i wanna write about, but with the computer busted, i can't really do tat... but wadever right~

so here it is...

The Vivo Experience~
by yours truly...

i had no trouble finding the staff entrance this morning... simply followed some girl ahead of me thru a door next to TANGS, which, after a rather long & creepy walk thru an echoy hallway, led to the inside of the department store (finally) were i made my way to the counter....

10.01am
an announcement was made over the PA system.... "The store is now opening, all staff please return to ur respective counters." i looked around.. there was bearly 4 people insight. There was a woman from Bvlgari, one from DKNY & two (a man & a woman) from the TANG & CO. store behind me. I wondered were everyone went....

10.54am
after rummaging thru the cupboards & drawers, i think i managed to get a feel of were things were placed & how systematically i would retrieve those items out should a the time arrive for me to do so~ There were more people ion the store now... 2 from Clarins & Dior... including the occasional customer walkin thru. 70% of the staff were still missing... it felt kinda weird at 1st.. u know, with the place being so desserted n all... but then i realised wad a great time i would be havin for the next couple of hours with no one around :)

11.31am
i'm beginning to like the counter at Vivo, especially (extremely especially) due to the this magical thing called a 'chair' located behind the counter~ the idea of just sitting the whole 8 hrs of work away was very appealing indeed :) i spent most of the time on this wonderous device readin my book & spinnin around in it... had there been more leg room, i would've kept on spinnin regardless of the awkward stares and glares the people around me would give...

12.07pm
i finally found a decent piece of paper (in one of the office folders i found rummaging thru the cupboards again) to pen my thoughts down with greater detail... texted a few ppl back & called the BFF on the company phone & chatted for a bit before she had to leave... ppl are startin to wonder what im writing so vigourously on this piece of paper that i keep halfing to gain leverage when writing.... i notice their puzzled glances as they walk pass my counter... but at this point, i dont really feel embarresed by it, im just enjoyin the freedom~

12.23pm
this is the 2nd piece of paper im using to write... took another from the file in the cupboard again (without much hesitation this time). Saw a pretty girl with her mom walk by for a brief sec, thought i'd mention it. she had really nice hair~ the store plays alot of oldies music.. & its not the classics like "Chicago" or "Air Supply" but rather a bunch of unknown Retro hits u've probably heard somewhere b4 but never bother to find out the title of the song or hu sang it... then after a while, u forget it entirely.... think i'll just continue readin my book, its due next tuesday & im only at chapter 9...

12.50pm
a guy approached me enquiring about the fragrances... he was the 1st customer i spoke to today (there was another b4 him, but he was askin for directions so tat doesn't count) i was pretty impressed with myself for remembering where the sets & bottles were. it went pretty smooth, though he didnt purchase anything~ Plus, while i was writing this down, i had to pause twice for another 2 more customers hu came... the store is still pretty much a ghost town, just slightly noiser than before... and im kinda startin to get a lil hungry~

1.14pm
Lots of text msgs from random ppl today... they kept me amused throughout the morning. its pretty difficult to read my book having to constantly hide it by my side everytime i notice someone approaching... doesn't really matter if its a customer.. im more afraid of those Nazi Floor Managers who'd throw stones at u the second u pull out ur cellphone-_- no such encounter with them yet though.... i tend to keep it tat way...

2.04pm
im startin to wonder when the Afternoon shift person's gonna arrive... im hungry~ gave up tryin to read my book in secret & passed the time leaning against the counterwall starin at the guy in the Diesel Poster infront. He seemed to be wanting to say something to me...

"Fuel for life?" he said without moving his lips (or face for that matter...)
"no thank you, i prefer juice~" i replied.. not moving my lips either~

3.08pm
lunch was Dory Fish with Tartar Sauce & Rice from Food Republic. It barly tasted like fish for that matter... sooo not worth the five bucks i spent on it-_- i'm runnin low on writing space.. theres about 2cm of space left, i need paper....

3.19pm
i went into Best Denki a level down.. was goin to grab one of those A4 sized flyer with the computer specs printed on them as writing material. i snickered at the idea and gave myself a 'thumbs up' in my head at my own resourcefulness.. but there were none of those flyers there to my disappointment... so i went to the "Big Bookshop" (which, contrary to its name, was no bigger than my living room) and ripped out a piece of foolscap :) i went upstairs to the quiet and started to write~

3.39pm
turns out i'm actually allowed to read at the counter as well as sneak in an occasional cookie or a drink... did i mention how much i like the Vivo counter? :)

4.09pm
the journey to the bathroom is quite a tricky one... it involves going a couple of metres west, pass 'FX Creations' and 'Picard', where the smell of pure leather and mahogany overpowers your senses, less you belong to the wealthy, then it'd probably smell as common as a Shrooms burger from KFC. A turn here and there, down a corridor or 2 and you'd reach yet another security check point. you write your name and the 'time in' into a log book. The guard then taps a button which unlocks a magnetised door leading to the cargo lift... you then proceed to take the lift up to the 2nd floor where upon more turns, leads to the lavatory. At which i spent an exceptionally long time grooming myself infront of the mirror. Afterall, having taken a longer time to get there and finishing in half that would've seemed trivial~ so, i took my time.... i took a lot of it :)

6.49pm
Work ended an hour ago. Met Stewy and had our famous conversations outside the roof garden thingy~ Went to Food Republic and had Dim Sum... i haven't had Dim Sum since i tasted french fries... and they tasted good~ We're waiting for the rest to come, then we'll have a proper dinner. One with chicken... and lots of cheese :)
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ok thats about all i wrote... here's a picture of the papers i used to write so u dont think i made this up~




30mins later Yee Hao, Carmen, Weilun & Ced came n we had dinner & fooled around Vivo before headin home~

woke up around 11-ish this morning n watched Hanna Montana before headin over to the BFF's for a special quality do-nothin-and-chill-out session~ when we returned, i couldn't find my cellphone so we called my no. and the robot voicemail lady said the phone was switched off.. so then i tried callin again & someone answered it, breathed a lil on the reciever, then hung up... he/she never picked up again-_-

sonofabitch~

i curse the person who took my phone n failed to return it... if it were a dude, i hope his penis gets eaten by a flock of penis-eating-crows... if it was a chick, well.. i personally can't believe a girl would be so morally confused as to the ramifications of whether or not u'd return a phone u found that doesn't belong to u to its rightful owner.. but if it were, i hope she grows a penis-_-


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on a lighter note, im gonna screen some pictures of me and bunny's lil picnic at Vivo acouple of weeks back since we're all on the whole "Vivo Experience" thing...






this happend acouple of weeks back... now my hair's all short and my sunburn's better and, well, i still had my phone-_- but hey, its all good... life is good~

on the bright side of this, i get to have a new phone... bad news would be tat i have to dip into the tattoo/sch fees fund-_-

im never gonna get inked at this rate....
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sonofabitch~

purplePEApeople~

flash back of the past few days since sephira's broken and i cant blog no more... have to keep goin to the bff's place to use the internet but its cool hangin out :)

a reeally long time ago... (dates & days i cant remember)
random picture of me and the guys of DIESEL~




long time ago....
me and eddee at work doing tat "go round and give strangers fragrance samples" but really it was more of a "do wadever we want happy-funky time and try not to get caught" thing~ met up with the bff too :)




not too long ago but still relativly distant....
finally managed to hang out with bunny. Went to Blue URrrrban Oasis for dinner... chilled, played with my funky hat and cam whored~





not so long ago....
stewy + ceily + videocam = random conversations and the birth of the People of the Purple PEA~


busybusybusy~
gotta get my computer fixed... i miss youtubing and using a mouse instead of a touchpad -_-


"ever wondered if there was a world in a world in a pea?"


DAMN I SMELL GOOD!~

Fuel for Life~

workin in the fashion line, u start to notice certain things... like how those shoes dont match tat top, the colour of ur jeans dont compliment ur belt, how certain bags and accessories look good or stupid on certain ppl~ i think im turnin into one of those metro-homosexuals...

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dammit-_-

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work was rather entertaining... 4 ppl took photos with me, some guy from a modeling agency wants to hire us for some roadshow... during breaktime, me n helmi went into the Marriot Hotel and lazed on the sofa's at the 2nd floor to pass the time..


it was pretty cool... hotel lobbies are a great place to bumm... i mean think about it... the ppl hu stay in hotels never actually use the sofas there to sit anyway... all u need to do is wave at all the hotel staff there and pretend ur waitin for a friend to meet u & no one will think otherwise :)

saw a bunch of stupid ass ah bengs walkin past us... they were young and everyone of them wore skinnies and walked with arms frailin from side to side, smoking and acting all coooool~

we were laughin our asses off at them lol~



haa haaa ha~!
im such an asshole :)

look at the pretty pictures~

4 days ago...
went to the National Museum of Singapore with the bff & the turds~
"Greek Masterpieces" Gallery.. i did more stuff tat day, but i totally forgot the details, so yeah...









3 days ago...
joy riding with the bff, bff's brother & yK~
drove to a romantic rendevouz point somewhere near expo... watched the planes go by n stuff... did more stuff after tat too but im lazy to go into detail... anyway, more pictures...



2 day ago...
stewy's bday parrtayyy~ i realise i look kinda scary in photos -_-



Yesterday....
went to vivo with Stewy... there was this japanese store there called "Daiso" or something like tat which sold all sorts of random junk for $2~

Ninja Gloves for $2...
Giant chopsticks for $2...
Plastic carrots for $2....
i love that place... its so random... n i bought a pillow~

i also bought shoes n a $90 dollar shirt from Zara~ stu got some batteries....

Today...
i met sooo many ppl at work today... sec school friends, poly friends, work friends, random friends, friend's friends~

they made me wear a hat for the new Diesel Promotion... not cap, HAT.. like Justin Timberlake~ and suspenders... which is very gay n it makes my pants ride up my ass crack... but wadever~ its all good...

note to self: stop buying $90 dollar shirts... save money for tatt and future sch fees-_-

pretty.Odd~

hey... u might wanna tie ur shoe laces, the panda's are commin to get u~ sometimes when their not lookin, u can steal a cookie from their pockets...

but then again, u only get one chance at calamity~ so i'd rather u just catch the butterflies instead, at least they make ur tummy feel weird... i like the way her hair is tied in a bun.... the better to float the mountains of tangerines and wool~

i hope the gates open soon, i gotta return the guitar strings to the alcohol bunnies or they'll eat my the purple parts of my toes :(

anyway, heres the line below the waist...

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"O"

*punch~

if u had no idea wad im talkin about... ur probably hungry~

perks of work~

so err....

good news
i get to smell like the sexiest man alive everyday~

bad new
lots of creepy gay guys...

good news
even more girls :)





why am i still not in bed -_-

"i'll be back~"

went for an interview at the ĽORÉAL place in somerset yesterday... took me a long enough for me to find it too -_- probably made like 3 rounds around the entire building before i saw the entrance...

the reception area was soo "ugly betty"-ish~ there werent exactly alot of supermodels walkin around, but lots of women... in suits and designer outfits.. and french guys with funky accents... i mean, u know ur office is glamourous when u got tv screens enbedded in the walls showing advertisments of ur products in ur reception area....

waited kinda long for the person but the interview took like 5 mins... the lady was nice.. said i'd either be in Ralph Lauren or Diesel so tats cool~ met up with Rick at Plaza Sing for dinner... had'nt seen him in like months so it was cool... ate at Manhatten's Fish Market... its almost the same as Fish n' Co. but their seafood platter definately trumps F & C's....

just look at it... it was huge... plus there was a additional 'cool' factor havin the guy use a blowtorch to melt the cheesey parts infront of u...



we were already super hungryto begin with and ate every last morsel till we got sick... but it was soo worth it~ too bad there's onli like 2 outlets in the whole of sg...

went to watch "Jumper" afterwards... which is really cool... had a decent storyline n cool effects... the movie had a sort of "comic-book-turned-movie" feel.. which kinda worked well with the film... not exactly an epic tale of proportions.. but a pretty cool movie to catch nontheless... not to mention how it ended so appropriatly tat im sure there'd be a sequel to it in the next couple of years... n i'll be lookin forward to it~

all in all, i had a pretty gd time... interview for a cool job went well... met up with an old pal... had a satisfying dinner and watched a awesome movie...

so yeah..
kudos to friday nights~

nine in the afternoon~

me: "hey mom..."
mother: "what?"
me: *silence~

me: "hey MOM..."
mother: "what??"
me: *silence~

me: "mommm.."
mother: *silence~
me: "Mummy?"
mother: *silence~
me: "MOMMMMM!!!"
mother: "jiang!" (talk!)

me: "i want a burrito~"
mother: "bu yao cao lah!"
*runs away frailing arms about wildly~


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have to clean my room... cause the mother told me to... but i dont wanna... but i'm gonna have to... or the germs will get me~




no one wants a giant talkin bar of soap to appear in ur bedroom and take u away now do they....



i still want tat burrito -_-

juuuuice~

DANCE YOU YELLOW SNOWMAN DANCE!!!!


how's that for randomness....

2+2 is 9... the voice in the telephone told me dinosaurs come from empty cookie jars... and if u listen really carefully, u can hear them sing the theme song to Captain Planet~

im soo weird-_-


and thirsty....

bff~

the bff is feeling sad... and i dont know why~
i called her but she wouldn't pick up.. i texted her but she wouldn't reply...

i dont know whats bothering her... but its bothering me too~ i'd wish she'd talk to me... i'd wish she'd tell me whats gotten her so down... whether its a complicated issue i could help solve, or a bothersome individual i can "persuade" to leave u be~

i'd wish she's give me some kind of hint as to what's on her mind... talk to me, please~ its the onli way i can understand whats going on... perhaps she herself doesn't know why she's feeling this way.... i get that too... i feel down for no reason all the time... and knowing that, know that ur not alone~

im just a block away from u, 5 mins walk to ur place.... 10min if u want me to get u ben & jerry's... or perhaps a bag of kittens... i miss having dinner with u in ur kitchen.. i miss bumming in ur room and sharing a tub of Cookie Dough on ur bed with the same spoon~

and the whole time, we'd talk.... about everything... the mundane woes of life to the scandalous gossips of school~ i guess i havent been spending alot of time with u these pass few weeks... but ur my best friend, and u onli need ask, and i will try n provide, unconditionaly, cause our friendship is at that level now.. where u dont need a reason to ask me for something, nor do i require anything in return....

10 years from now, nothing's gonna change.... we'd still be having dinner at ur kitchen... we'd still be havin ice cream in ur room.... we'd still be talking about life~ nothing's going to change...

bff trumps all friends... sometimes i dont show it... but that doesnt mean it isn't true... so please... ur my best friend...




talk to me...~

imma lil teapot~

today was weird... went home from work n passed out on the bed after i ate my lunch n every thing.. then remi called askin to go for dinner... i said 'ok'~

on the bus to whitesands, there were these 2 perky teenagers from my old secondary sch sittin just infront of where i was.. a boy & a girl~ i couldn't help over hearing what they were talkin about since they were doin it really loudly... not in a vulgar way though.. think they just sound like tat naturally... anyway, the conversation was just.. soo.. stupid....

i dont even know how u explain it.. its, the kinda stupid teenage conversations about their trivial social standings and high school gossip that just makes u want to hurt them... plus the guy's voice was so friggin high.. which is soo weird cause guys with freakishly high voices have always creeped me out~

then all of a sudden they started singing... loudly too...

WEIRD!

they kept doing it all the way to the train station -_- i was behind them all the way... restraining myself from lunging at them...

the entrance of whitesands had an equally bizzare scene... amongst the crowd of ppl commin out from the mrt and those comming & going from the shoppin mall was this old brown dog... just layin there in the middle... it was kinda sad cause he looked dirty n hurt? i suppose? or he was probably just restin.... but what dog does tat? just lay there, in the middle of... well... everything~

and in that same area was this half-naked old guy singin chinese opera from a mic while his sidekick plucked on some ancient chinese thinga-ma-jig string instrument... and on the other corner.. was the dog~

WEIRD!

i know it sounds pretty normal.. just some dog.. and an old guy... but seeing both together was just weird... i mean... they.... well...its weird so.... ahhhh-_- ~ it just is, why am i even explaining myself...

had macdonalds, walked around then left.. on the way back, while waiting for the light to turn green.. there was an suv stationed behind a redlight... at the backseat, there was this dude with the windows winded down.. and he was takin pictures of us...

i dunno if it was some prank or wadever, i dont think it was.... there was like, a family inside the car, not a bunch of punks doing each other's dares and makin asses of themselves if u know wad i mean.. anyway he was using a pretty fancy camera.. with a red aiming light n flash... took like 2 pictures b4 the light went green then they drove off... that is before i waved to them & they waved back.. as if takin my picture wasnt strange enough...

WEIRD!

walked to pasir ris central to get fruit juice cause i was thirsty n i like juice... then when the guy was done juicing the watermelons, he shrieked the words "do u need a plastic bag?" in the most WEiRdesT tone... it was... high, and shrieky and sounded kinda retarded.. i said "nahh" then looked back at remi n gave him a raised eye brown...

juice was refreshing though....

it's probably pretty confusing if u just read this.. u had to be there to... to feel the awkardness of it all... but wadever, i wanted to write about it.. so i did.... and if u start reading it, and u see a pink rabbit start to form between ur eyes, then u'll know...

u'll know its commin for u.. and its gonna get u.... cause it lives in ur brain and eats on ur soul.. then u'll be beggin for the purple pencils to bring ur chicken away -_-

*awkwwwwarrrrrd....




KAY BYE!~

angsty~

im so angry... every morning.. so damn angsty~ from the moment i wake up, feels like everything's tryin to annoy me~

punk kids goin to school makin so much damn noise, ppl hu block my way when im in a hurry... u decide to stop in the middle of the pressing crowd to think where u wanan go next, wads up with that? -_-

and the morons hu wont move to the back of the freakin bus when there's so much space to stand there... wat the hell's ur problem? not glamourous enough for ya to be standing at the rear end? huh?

well fuck u~

even the birds feel like their mockin me... perchin on the railings with their twiggy legs n 3-toed talons... like their better then me cause they can fly n all -_-

im soo angsty~
and i dont even know why.... maybe its cause i killed to many kittens... then again, maybe its cause i stopped -_- murder's alway was a great way to realise one's bottled-up rage...

old people scare me... i hate it when they rush for seats in the train like their lives depended on it..... hate it when they try to squeeze into a train thats clearly maxed out its capacity... how are we suppose to respect the elderly when they behave like 2 yr olds~

and oh my gawd, i cant believe Heath Ledger's dead...
i mean... shit~

seriously...what the hell man -_-

im just feel soo beaten down by everything... i'm loosin control of my own reality, n its makin me feel weird.. insecure... and i DONT EVEN KNOW WHY... i tell myself "its just one of those days... u'll get over it, no worries :)"

3 days later, nothing changes... but ahh well, no worries...
its just one of those days.. tomoro would be better...





oh wait, didn't i say that yesterday? ~

be quiet~

*TUMP TUMP TUMP~
went the mother as she tumped loudly on the sister's room door early in the morning.
She shouts through the door something about the trains not working... n hurries the sister before she becomes late for work...

the sister replies something through the otherside of the door, its too muffled to be heard from my room... but the mother understood, and replied in kind with more frantic outcries of urgency~

i was having an unpleasent dream then, it wasn't so much a nightmare as it was... unpleasent, if tat makes any sense.... but a dream's a dream, & i was enjoying the fantasy... that is... till this incident began-_-

i thrashed about my bed, making noises with my feet, in hopes the mother would see my distress as an indication to keep ur voice down or stop banging on the damn door~ but no such assessment was made... and the noise continued...

the sister exits from her room & the conversation gets louder... i thrashed about even more.. but no one sees.. or they did, but no one cares~

"turn on the radio!" one of them says in ching...
"see what the news has to say about the distruption with the trains!"

and they did... to 93.3FM -_-
with that insidious S-Pop theme song being played between every infomercial... i thrashed and i thrashed, blanket hurled off the side of the bed... i buried my head beneath my pillow, shielding my ears tightly, but i could still hear it... it seeps through the cotton threads & the gaps of my fingers, pass the brain and into my soul~

i wailed and i howled, but my mouth is dry, n no sound could be heard~ i felt helpless... could no one hear my cries for sanctuary? if they could, did no one bothered to question my distress? i didnt know which was worst~

it was torture.... i screamed, i moaned, i howled~ then, as aburptly as it had begun, it stopped.... the front door slammed shut, locks were latched, footsteps shuffled away into the distance~

and it was quiet again...

but i was never the same, how could u be after all that.... my eyes stared blankly at the ceiling... tired as they were, they would not close~ sweat dripped from the side of my forehead... dazed, and still shaken from the ordeal, i did the only thing i could do...









i woke up....

pimp my crib~

i went to sloppy's house today to watch American gangster... met him at the bus stop i alighted at then bought 2 pizzas from Canadian n got chips from 7eleven... the feg wanted to spend $7.50 on a pack of "boiled" chips, but i pursaded him otherwise~

so then we walked to his house about half a mile away... i was so excited to see it, & when we got there, it was beautiful... i mean, shit, it was.. so beautiful~

a delicate koi pond greeted us at the entrance.... there was this lawn chair placed right infront of it... perfect for just laying there, reading a book or sippin a cup of coffee in the morning~

indoor pool, with a jacuzzi at the end mind u~ how cool is tat?

ok, so.. open the sliding glass doors n into the big ass living room.. with celings so high & space so wide... u could produce an echo from a pin drop~

a piano, he probably never touches, placed ever so complementary below the winding stairs.. it accomodates the ambience of the mellow household incredibly well~ doesnt really show it on the picture, but it does.. one of those "u-gotta-be-there-to-get-it" kinda thing~

his room, though lightly lit, actually feels warmer that way... most of the light comes from the window, but tats really all the light u need~

alright, so.. on to the cool things of the house...

Cool thing No.#1
its got 6 computers, laptops + desktops included~

Cool Thing No.#2
there's 3 plasma TVs all over the house.. hu need 3 TVs? let alone plasmas? fuckin rich ppl -_-



Cool Thing No.#3...
ladies are gonna like this... theres a room in his mom's room to keep all ur clothes in... u know, like in the movies.. where the have a room for their shoes... this is it... cept with clothes... yeah~

Cool Thing No.#4
the shower in his parents bedroom (yeah, theres like.. 20 bathrooms in the house... all of which are probably more fancier than urs) have this sup-ed up hydro gizmo future h2o squirt-o-matic shower massager spa thing-a-ma-jig that.. omg i cant even discribe.. just look at it n aww in its presence~


and finally.. the best for last~

Cool Thing No.#5 (and coolest thing in the house)
He's GOT A BIDET!!!!!

for those of u who dont know wad tat is, a Bidet is this really dandy crapper that the french invented that shoots a jet of water up ur butt n cleans ur ass with a push of a button~

n he never even knew about it -_- so here we are figurin out how to turn it on...

apparently its pressure sensitive, so we had to press the sit down to activate it lol... talk about Artificial inteligence in ur potty~ the things technology can do these days~


and to think...all this... all this wonderful n beautiful stuff... belongs to THIS TURD~


seriously, anyone wanna kidnap him?




anyone...?

07/01/08~

i've been feelin rather haggared these past few days. my eyes feel heavy and puffy, sometimes when i sit up too fast my head would pulse a beat & a minor pain would daze me for a couple of seconds before i manage to regain myself~

i was sick a couple of days back, kept thrownin up all over the place... it was painful~ i remembered passin out onto my bed from the fatigue of the affliction & havin the weirdest dreams during my unconciousness~ i cant remember them now of course.. but they kept me amused in my half-weary state...

i missed a really cool dinner on tat day because of this illness, but stewy made me some chicken and gave it to me at church last sunday... which was kinda gay, but really sweet in a "man" sort of way~

i feel almost completely healed now, cept for the headaches, which i think would pass if i had more rest... but i dont like taking naps, it gives my body too much access engery which i dont really need if i wanna keep my sleepin schedule in tact~

sometimes when i see someone on the street leanin on a pillar smokin a cigarette, i feel tempted~ i havent thought bout it for months, but a couple of days ago, there was this guy infront of me... & he was smokin, and he puffed the smoke out & i happend to inhale it... & it felt good~ and i missed tat feeling...

i realised ur mind n ur body are 2 seperate things... ur mind controls ur body, tats for sure... but u cant stop ur body from feeling wad it feels... im not as in control of my body's emotions as most ppl are... but im in control of my mind... n tats wad counts~

went to the market today to get groceries... i like doing that~ i'd be like, the youngest person there of course... pickin out vegetables with on my ipod on surrounded by all the old ppl around me doin their shoppin~ perks of shoppin for ur own groceries is tat u pick wad u wanna eat... i'd usually get lots of meat, and potato chips, and other stuff that i happen to fancy~

an episode of "Martha Stewart" had thought me how to cook this dish which required Scallions, which of course is this long-oniony-thing.... but when i got to the supermarket, all the veggies where labeled in their chinese term, like.. instead of saying "Chinese Cabbage" they'd call it "Xiao Bai Cai"~

so, unless u know how the thing actually looks like, u cant find it with just its name... which was super gay since vegetables all look the same~ but i guess it doesnt effect ppl much since they DO know how it looks like... but wadever right, just let me rant about it~

Facebook is a real bitch.. i dont get how to use it~ every day i get like 3 or 4 emails of ppl hu wanna "have sex" with me, its kinda weird but flattering at the same time.. and everytime i click it, n it takes me to the facebook site where'd just get lost in n close it like 2 mins later... -_-



someone's gotta teach me how to use facebook one day, then i can figure out how to throw houses at those ppl hu keep wanting to rape me~