xing nian quai ler~

chinese new year's one of the most biggest celebrations in Asia i would say... although the sites aren't as dramatic as to those of xmas or new year's, the sounds are pretty noticeable. Almost everywhere i go they'd be playin those old school festive songs... even in the public bathrooms, like theres ever a need to hear something like That in there~

but i like chinese new year, the free money, the tons of food... its even an excuse for kids to gamble. i have fun just hangin out with my family & relatives. like i said, its a big deal~

although, i've never really acquired the taste for Steamboat, or Shark's Fin, or Abalone or any other exotic (& rather expensive) Asian delicacies for that matter, that's never stopped me from whippin up some chicken poppers or orderin Pizza on the side~ but its the time of the year where i'd put those habits aside n just join in with them and eat the unfamiliar cusines.

its a pleasant cultural change for me and sometimes rather educational.. i sometimes learn new words or random trivia bout the chinese culture that may not appeal to me that much but its still interesting to know since i am, afterall, beige to the skin~

this may all seem rather normal to any other person but for someone like me, whose youth till now's proficiency in the Mandarin language has failed to even obtain so much as a passing grade since my primary-hood. since then most of the friends i made had usually been of different ethnicity from me~

i never watched any of the hk dramas or the taiwanese game shows on tv.. therefore i never had any common topic to converse with the other beige kids at my school. almost half of my closest friends back then where non-chinese. Even today my best friend is Malay~

it was onli during tertiary that i started hangin out with the chinese kids, n that took some gettin used too. now that im in National Service, the singaporean chinese in me has never made such a notable appearance before. i still speak good english, cept now i have a better understanding for Singlish as well~

i order my own tea by telling the uncle, "teh-peng" instead of "iced-tea". for example~ a pretty retarded thing to even mention but for me, when i go out and when i say such things.. i notice it~

i like being chinese, even though i don't act like one most of the time~

after all the fishball noodles and xiao long baos... i like to just go back to having pizza and spagatti for lunch after all this is done :)





post script: did i get the title right?

sand storms~

its freakin hot....
its not even funny how hot it is right now....
these dry spells are rather odd seeing as how its suppose to be the middle of monsoon season~

is there too much CO2 in the air? is it global warming? is the atmosphere breakin apart? is the end of the world commin?

i dunno...
but wad i do know, is tat its soo freakin hot....
& im going to bed~

RR & R~

the 69th NSF Aviation Vehicle Specialists~
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u've just been ball gazed to the death~

ok lah....~

too weird -_-~

U SET GUYS SET ME UP!!!

the night before~

i dont think i've ever been beatin up before, it was quite a fun 1st time~
theres bruises and cuts all over my arms, body and face... everything hurts, even blood was drawn at a strange place....

my hands are still trembling when i hold them up...

i think i'll do it again soon :)


just a few more hours... im super excited, and super scared at the same time...

dont no one touch me once its done or i swear i'll cry~

dog day afternoon~

my new Airforce uniform makes me look oh so spiffy :)
i bought a camouflage net for fun and hung it in front of my door for kicks... all the other Tees aint too bad either~ u got the blue and white T-shirts, the collared polos and the PT kits and shorts, all of which have tat grand logo of the RSAF printed right in the middle~ and i must add, the beret just doubles the "solider" look :)

speakin of uniforms, i've seen the new pixel coloured uniform of the SAF and damn does it make u look like a seaweed.. yeah its more practical, but i cant take my eyes off it when i see it, and neither would the enemy... besides, u look like a fool when u wear it to honest~

but, then again... i suppose we'd have to see it "work" in an actual jungle to really make any judgment... though if there were to have a war today, the colour ought to be grey or something since everythings all "urban warfare" n all tat jazz~

i'd hate to see an actual war start in asia.. i dont wanna experience something like tat in my lifetime... but at the rate things are going, i really dont know... sooner or later the shit in the middle east is gonna travel to us and every narcissistic person in this country will flip and start blaming each other, then it'll be 1964 again with race riots goin on and everything this tiny ass country built would have all gone to shit cause eventhough sg's a safe n prosperous place, the ppl are pricks and attitude always trumps ingenuity, period....

singaporeans know their pricks, we cant really help it... and its not because we want to be this way.. its cause u just dont wanna help the person next to u cause u know he/she's a douchebag as well~

its just like tat old lady in the train who abusively pushes everyone outtve her way just to get tat seat at the corner... & as the charitable & compassionate member of society tat u are... you would've gladly givin up ur seat to this elderly woman, but after her act of inconsideration towards u all all the ppl around you, u'd start thinking tat maybe(just maybe..) she doesn't deserve tat seat anymore... soon, you'd start to think tat all old ppl are like tat.. then u'd think all people in general are like tat... and soon, everyone in the world'll be tat way...

then u'd think, why should i show an ounce of decency when no one else is? im gettin the bad end of the deal here, i gotta start lookin out for myself, my own needs, my own individual~

thats when u become self-centered and conceited and all the other Synonyms tat mean "selfish" & "asshole"... so the next time on the train, and u see an old guy lookin for a seat, u pretend to sleep, or look the other way...

"he's just gonna steal my seat from me, i wont let him, the Basterd! i'll just close my eyes n pretend im asleep, that'll show him..."

and tats the moment where god takes ur name outtve the good book and the whole world's gonna burn in hell forever -_-

but hey, im just callin it like i see it... if u give ur seats up to old ppl on the bus then good for u... but wad about the guy who needs a lift cause his tyre blew... or the kid hu fell of his bicycle and needs a hand...

"dont worry, someone else will do it... im late for my pilates class anyway~"
and tats all u need to clear any form of guilt u have in ur mind... which just shows wad a really great human being you are~

now, im no saint either, i dont give my seats to old ppl or help kids who've fallen off trees back on their feet all the time... and thats the irony of it...

perhaps i'll start being nicer when other ppl are nicer to me first ey?

magiclean~

i spent the entire day cleaning my room n now its so beautiful i want to cry~ all the clutter on the floor is gone, the shelves are dust-free, the table's neat and the wires n cables are neatly organized...

clothes in my wardrobe's been folded and the bedsheet's changed... took the entire day but damn everything's so sparkly now :) i think, now with the room all clean n shit, its become more of a personal haven... its opened up portals to allow the good chi magic to flow in...

crystal blue and hazel green, all the colours of the world if squint ur eyes, they can be seen floatin around my room in their mist-like state. glowing orbs of healing energy makin their rounds, thru the cupboards and under the tables~ spreadin their happy magic on all hu enter :)




wad...? whys everybody lookin at me like tat for..?

the city is at war~

yes it is...