i cant seem to find her..... the girL~
i find myself constantly walking around aimlessly in search for her...
but never find her~
i regret never taking the opportunity to get to know her more back then....
We would exchange secret glances during class.. no one knowing but us...
yet i never pursuded the attraction...~
Now with her missing... my whole world seems depopulated....~
Every girl i see reminds me of her...
Every where i go, i hoped she'd show up..
Her image was burnt in my mind....
i could never stop thinkin of her~
i could'nt sleep.. i could'nt concentrate...
During lessons i would think of her... During lunch breaks her beauty interupted my mind~
Even in my sleep she haunted my dreams...
It was drivin me insane... ~
her absence was worse than death...
i longed for a reunion with her...... be it a 10 sec "hello~" or just a glace frm her alluring eyes would suffice...
I barely know her... n she barely knows me...
but the attraction was unimaginable..
to miss someone so much...who's last name u dont know... tells u just how instense
the invisible chemistry was....~
Slowly ( & painfully..) do the lone hours fly as i wait to see her again...
What shall I do with all these days and hours...
Her image keeps coming back to me in my head... tormenting me with the excruciating feeling of aphrodisia & lust~
As time goes by, i fear of unremembering her...
Absence diminishes little passions and increases greater ones~
with each passing day... i wish n pray for an opportunity to see her.. to hear her speak.. to feel her touch...~
with each passing day.... i grow more & more desolated...~
this one girL, whom i barely know n hu barely knows me is wat keeps me going... she's wat i think of when im sad... she's wat i hope for when im lonely...~
this one girL, who's last name i do not know... is wat makes me wake up in the
morning & wat torments me at night...~
i wonder if i'd ever find her...
i wonder if she'd ever find me...
Forever in my mind: the girL~
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
the babies~
A few years back all the Animals went away~
We woke up one morning n they were all just gone....
They didnt leave a note, they didnt say goodbye...
We never figured out wat quite happened to them.. or where they all had gone...
We missed them~
Some off us thought the world had ended, but it hadn't...
There just weren't any animals left~
No more Dogs or Whales.. No more fishes in the Sea .. No more Birds in the sky...
We were all alone~
We didnt know wat to do.. we wandered around lost, for a time, & then someone pointed out tat just because we didnt have animals anymore, it was no reason to change our lives... There was no reason to change our diets or cease testing products that might cause us harm...
After all, there were still Babies~
Babies cant talk. They can hardly move. A baby is not a rational, thinkin creature.
We made Babies....& we used them....
Some of them we ate...
Baby flesh is tender & succulent~
We flayed their skin& decorated ourselves in it....
Baby leather is soft & comfortable~
Some of them we tested on....
We taped their eyes, dripped detergents & shampoos in, a drop at a time.
We scarred tem & scalded them. we burnt them. We grafted & we Froze, & We irradiated..
The Babies breathed our smoke & the babies' veins flowed with our medicines & drugs, until they stopped breathing or until their bloods ceased to flow.
It was hard, of course, but it was nessary...
No one could deny tat~
With the animals gone... what else could we do?
Then one day all the Babies were gone...~
We didnt know where they went... we didnt even see them go~
We dont know wat we're going to do without them... But we'll think of something..
Humans are smart..
Its wat seperates us from the animals & the babies...
We'll Figure something out~
(Neil Gaiman- Babycakes)
We woke up one morning n they were all just gone....
They didnt leave a note, they didnt say goodbye...
We never figured out wat quite happened to them.. or where they all had gone...
We missed them~
Some off us thought the world had ended, but it hadn't...
There just weren't any animals left~
No more Dogs or Whales.. No more fishes in the Sea .. No more Birds in the sky...
We were all alone~
We didnt know wat to do.. we wandered around lost, for a time, & then someone pointed out tat just because we didnt have animals anymore, it was no reason to change our lives... There was no reason to change our diets or cease testing products that might cause us harm...
After all, there were still Babies~
Babies cant talk. They can hardly move. A baby is not a rational, thinkin creature.
We made Babies....& we used them....
Some of them we ate...
Baby flesh is tender & succulent~
We flayed their skin& decorated ourselves in it....
Baby leather is soft & comfortable~
Some of them we tested on....
We taped their eyes, dripped detergents & shampoos in, a drop at a time.
We scarred tem & scalded them. we burnt them. We grafted & we Froze, & We irradiated..
The Babies breathed our smoke & the babies' veins flowed with our medicines & drugs, until they stopped breathing or until their bloods ceased to flow.
It was hard, of course, but it was nessary...
No one could deny tat~
With the animals gone... what else could we do?
Then one day all the Babies were gone...~
We didnt know where they went... we didnt even see them go~
We dont know wat we're going to do without them... But we'll think of something..
Humans are smart..
Its wat seperates us from the animals & the babies...
We'll Figure something out~
(Neil Gaiman- Babycakes)
Angelology 101~
To be fair for both sides, i've decided to shed some insight into the Angelology....
The Study Of Angels~
Angels....ethereal beings that generally carry out the WiLL of God... Messengers of GOd.. if u will~
These things are said to usually appear as Humans with Bird-Like Wings or Glowing entities like a wisp from Warcraft3 ...
Accordin to the Bible... these Beings of Light have intellegence, emotion & WiLL..
This works for both Good & EviL Angels.. ~
Angels are created by God to observe the Human race.. they have gr8 knowledge in everything beacuse they live Long enough to experience them.... also Angels are neither male nor female.. their "Sexless".. i mean.. do angels really need gender?
Like HeLL, Heaven too has 7 lvls... each ruled by a particular Demon/Angel..
The First Heaven: Shamayim~
This is the lowest lvl of the Heavens n is closest to Earth.. Its Ruled by the Archangel Gabriel.
This heaven consists of Clouds, Wind & Water... its home to a hundred over "Astronomer Angels" hu keep watch over the stars...~
The Second Heaven: Raquia~
This Heaven is ruled by the Archangels Raphael & Zachariel... this heaven is said to be where the Fallen Angels are imprisoned while waitin for their Final Judgement...
The Third Heaven: Sagun~
Sagun is ruled over by the Archangel Anahel and three other subordinate: Jagniel, Rabacyel, and Dalquiel... it is the residence for the Archangel Azrael, the Islamic Angel of death.
Accordin to wat the research says.. the NOrthern Part of this place is where HeLL resides... ( dont ask me y.. religion is confusing~ ) it is where the wicked are punished by the Angels...
The Southern Boarders of this Heaven is a Beautiful Paradise thought to be the Garden of Eden, where the souls of the righteous will come after Death~
This is also where the "Tree Of Life" can be found...
This place is where all the perfect souls go when they die & is guarded by 300 over Angels of Light..
The Fourth Heaven: Machanon~
Ruled by the Archangel Michael... this is where the Garden of Eden was Originally housed.. not the 3rd... THis place filled with Temples n Alters.. it is said to house the City Of Christ...
The Fifth Heaven: Mathey~
The Home of God, Aaron & the Avenging Angels~
The Southern Regions is where God can be found while the NOrthern parts are ruled by Archangel Samael...
The Sixth Heaven: Zebul~
Ruled by Archangel Zachiel & his subordinate Prince Zebul (in the day) & Prince Sabath (at night)... This icy snowstorm land is where 7 Phoenixes & 7 Cherubim (watever the hell tat is~) live....
Other Angels live here as well~
The Seventh Heaven: Araboth~
THe 7th Heaven is the most Holiest place of all the other heavens. Araboth is ruled by Archangel Cassiel and is home to God and his Divine Throne.. it is also the place where human souls are waitin to be born~ ( Groovy.. it a soul factory~)
It is also home to the highest Order of Angels: The Seraphim, Cherubim, (so tats wat it is...) and Thrones.
WEll.... at least u know wat button to press on the lift when u die...~
UNless u go to heLL tat is... ~
I'd like to end of this HIstory Lesson to say tat i am not Satanic or Extremly Religious.. i just thought it'd be cool to show ppl how fukin Stupid all this shit is... n how impossible n (in some cases) completely Retarded the whole Angel n Devil & God & Life & Death Conspiricy is...
With so many Different religions in the world.. n so many different versions of God.. of course there's gonna be conflict n shit~
This is y i dont like god (if he/she were real).... because ppl have Died for so many reason in the name of Religion...
Just look at NOrthern Ireland, World War 2, the Crusades & 911...
u think God wants us to kill each other ?!
OPEN UR EYES U MOTHERFUCKIN FACIST!!!
So....
My advice to religion is...
u dont have to believe it (like me~)...
but at least Respect it~
The world would be a better place if there wasnt any idea of GOd in the 1st place..
but hey...
thats just me~
xxx
The Study Of Angels~
Angels....ethereal beings that generally carry out the WiLL of God... Messengers of GOd.. if u will~
These things are said to usually appear as Humans with Bird-Like Wings or Glowing entities like a wisp from Warcraft3 ...
Accordin to the Bible... these Beings of Light have intellegence, emotion & WiLL..
This works for both Good & EviL Angels.. ~
Angels are created by God to observe the Human race.. they have gr8 knowledge in everything beacuse they live Long enough to experience them.... also Angels are neither male nor female.. their "Sexless".. i mean.. do angels really need gender?
Like HeLL, Heaven too has 7 lvls... each ruled by a particular Demon/Angel..
The First Heaven: Shamayim~
This is the lowest lvl of the Heavens n is closest to Earth.. Its Ruled by the Archangel Gabriel.
This heaven consists of Clouds, Wind & Water... its home to a hundred over "Astronomer Angels" hu keep watch over the stars...~
The Second Heaven: Raquia~
This Heaven is ruled by the Archangels Raphael & Zachariel... this heaven is said to be where the Fallen Angels are imprisoned while waitin for their Final Judgement...
The Third Heaven: Sagun~
Sagun is ruled over by the Archangel Anahel and three other subordinate: Jagniel, Rabacyel, and Dalquiel... it is the residence for the Archangel Azrael, the Islamic Angel of death.
Accordin to wat the research says.. the NOrthern Part of this place is where HeLL resides... ( dont ask me y.. religion is confusing~ ) it is where the wicked are punished by the Angels...
The Southern Boarders of this Heaven is a Beautiful Paradise thought to be the Garden of Eden, where the souls of the righteous will come after Death~
This is also where the "Tree Of Life" can be found...
This place is where all the perfect souls go when they die & is guarded by 300 over Angels of Light..
The Fourth Heaven: Machanon~
Ruled by the Archangel Michael... this is where the Garden of Eden was Originally housed.. not the 3rd... THis place filled with Temples n Alters.. it is said to house the City Of Christ...
The Fifth Heaven: Mathey~
The Home of God, Aaron & the Avenging Angels~
The Southern Regions is where God can be found while the NOrthern parts are ruled by Archangel Samael...
The Sixth Heaven: Zebul~
Ruled by Archangel Zachiel & his subordinate Prince Zebul (in the day) & Prince Sabath (at night)... This icy snowstorm land is where 7 Phoenixes & 7 Cherubim (watever the hell tat is~) live....
Other Angels live here as well~
The Seventh Heaven: Araboth~
THe 7th Heaven is the most Holiest place of all the other heavens. Araboth is ruled by Archangel Cassiel and is home to God and his Divine Throne.. it is also the place where human souls are waitin to be born~ ( Groovy.. it a soul factory~)
It is also home to the highest Order of Angels: The Seraphim, Cherubim, (so tats wat it is...) and Thrones.
WEll.... at least u know wat button to press on the lift when u die...~
UNless u go to heLL tat is... ~
I'd like to end of this HIstory Lesson to say tat i am not Satanic or Extremly Religious.. i just thought it'd be cool to show ppl how fukin Stupid all this shit is... n how impossible n (in some cases) completely Retarded the whole Angel n Devil & God & Life & Death Conspiricy is...
With so many Different religions in the world.. n so many different versions of God.. of course there's gonna be conflict n shit~
This is y i dont like god (if he/she were real).... because ppl have Died for so many reason in the name of Religion...
Just look at NOrthern Ireland, World War 2, the Crusades & 911...
u think God wants us to kill each other ?!
OPEN UR EYES U MOTHERFUCKIN FACIST!!!
So....
My advice to religion is...
u dont have to believe it (like me~)...
but at least Respect it~
The world would be a better place if there wasnt any idea of GOd in the 1st place..
but hey...
thats just me~
xxx
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Demonology 101~
hi folks~
im feelin extra Sadistic today, so im gonna do a little tribute to Evil~
Demonology is, of course, the study of Demons... all kinds from all forms of religion.. Christian, Islamic, Greek, Buddhisim, Judaism...
You wouldn't believe the no. of Demons there are in Hell...
But im just gonna write about the more "Evil-er" ones...
So here it goes...
Demonology 101~
Lets start with the most Famous of Devils... the Four Princes of HeLL~
Begining With Satan.... Lord of Flames...
In some instances, he's given a title known as "Lucifer" which means "Bringer of Light" in Roman... ( Ironic how the Lord of the Damned is known as a Light-Bearer... -_- ) THe word Lucifer is synonymous with Satan.. that means their both the same person...
Anyway, in christianity, the Devil is seen as a Fallen Angel.. He was apparently under the authority of God but didnt seem to like how he was running things so he waged a War against him...
In my opinion, Lucifer isnt really a bad guy.. he's an Angel with a mind of his own tat decided that God wasnt doing a fair job n wanted to take matters into his own hands.. n since GOd is seen as this Great embodiment of Good..... the fella that opposes would automatically be the opposite of Good... tats Evil~
2nd on the list is Leviathan.. Prince of Liars..the great Dragon from the Watery Abyss... as well as the 3rd of the Four Princes of HeLL... (like i said b4, Lucifer n Satan r both sort of the same but they are also different embodiments... )
According to research n shit, Leviathan is this big ass whale with seven heads that devours the souls of the Damned on Judgement Day...
THe last Prince of HELL.. is known as Belial, the Worthless One....~
Belial is the carnal side of man, the lust, sex, pleasure... his element is the Earth.. he's a champion for just being Human... for the lust,sex & Pleasure~
So to sum things up....
Satan's element is Fire... n his rules the South..
Lucifer's Element is Air... he rules the East...
Leviathan's element is the Sea.. West...
& Belial is Earth n rule's North...
the Satanic Compass is inverted so North is actually South & East is acutally West..
F.Y.I
Ok.... all the Princes are done.. now.. its on to the minions..
INtroducing...
Beelzebub, "Lord of the Flies" & also the Prince Of Demons...
He ususally takes on the appearence of.. u guessed it... a fly...
also he pukes flames of Vomit.. go figure~
Astaroth ...Prince of Thrones, Lord Treasurer of Hell & Head of the 8th Order of Hell who commands 40 legions...
This Bad mother is one of the Chief Generals of HeLL n his name usually appears in Video games...
Baal.. the Lord of Destruction... a Greater Demon of hell... he is the first commanding general of the infernal armies he appears as a three headed beast with spider legs.. go play Diablo 2 if u dont know...
Mephistopheles ( also Mephisto, Mephistophilus, Mephist ) known as that which avoids the light ... known as the LOrd of Hatred... another General of Hell.. again.. go play Diablo 2 if u arent familiar with him..
Samaël, known as the Venom Of God & Angel of Death.. Sammael plays the role of the accuser, seducer, and destroyer...also one of the Princes Of Demons.. He is also the executioner of the death sentences...
oh man.. there are like a 100 more demons i havent mentioned.. u guys should really check them out... wat better way to understand life...
then to understand Death...
i know God is good n all.. but the Devil is just so much coolier..
with such a huge army... i wonder y they havent stormed the gates of Heaven yet...
oh well...~
666
im feelin extra Sadistic today, so im gonna do a little tribute to Evil~
Demonology is, of course, the study of Demons... all kinds from all forms of religion.. Christian, Islamic, Greek, Buddhisim, Judaism...
You wouldn't believe the no. of Demons there are in Hell...
But im just gonna write about the more "Evil-er" ones...
So here it goes...
Demonology 101~
Lets start with the most Famous of Devils... the Four Princes of HeLL~
Begining With Satan.... Lord of Flames...
In some instances, he's given a title known as "Lucifer" which means "Bringer of Light" in Roman... ( Ironic how the Lord of the Damned is known as a Light-Bearer... -_- ) THe word Lucifer is synonymous with Satan.. that means their both the same person...
Anyway, in christianity, the Devil is seen as a Fallen Angel.. He was apparently under the authority of God but didnt seem to like how he was running things so he waged a War against him...
In my opinion, Lucifer isnt really a bad guy.. he's an Angel with a mind of his own tat decided that God wasnt doing a fair job n wanted to take matters into his own hands.. n since GOd is seen as this Great embodiment of Good..... the fella that opposes would automatically be the opposite of Good... tats Evil~
2nd on the list is Leviathan.. Prince of Liars..the great Dragon from the Watery Abyss... as well as the 3rd of the Four Princes of HeLL... (like i said b4, Lucifer n Satan r both sort of the same but they are also different embodiments... )
According to research n shit, Leviathan is this big ass whale with seven heads that devours the souls of the Damned on Judgement Day...
THe last Prince of HELL.. is known as Belial, the Worthless One....~
Belial is the carnal side of man, the lust, sex, pleasure... his element is the Earth.. he's a champion for just being Human... for the lust,sex & Pleasure~
So to sum things up....
Satan's element is Fire... n his rules the South..
Lucifer's Element is Air... he rules the East...
Leviathan's element is the Sea.. West...
& Belial is Earth n rule's North...
the Satanic Compass is inverted so North is actually South & East is acutally West..
F.Y.I
Ok.... all the Princes are done.. now.. its on to the minions..
INtroducing...
Beelzebub, "Lord of the Flies" & also the Prince Of Demons...
He ususally takes on the appearence of.. u guessed it... a fly...
also he pukes flames of Vomit.. go figure~
Astaroth ...Prince of Thrones, Lord Treasurer of Hell & Head of the 8th Order of Hell who commands 40 legions...
This Bad mother is one of the Chief Generals of HeLL n his name usually appears in Video games...
Baal.. the Lord of Destruction... a Greater Demon of hell... he is the first commanding general of the infernal armies he appears as a three headed beast with spider legs.. go play Diablo 2 if u dont know...
Mephistopheles ( also Mephisto, Mephistophilus, Mephist ) known as that which avoids the light ... known as the LOrd of Hatred... another General of Hell.. again.. go play Diablo 2 if u arent familiar with him..
Samaël, known as the Venom Of God & Angel of Death.. Sammael plays the role of the accuser, seducer, and destroyer...also one of the Princes Of Demons.. He is also the executioner of the death sentences...
oh man.. there are like a 100 more demons i havent mentioned.. u guys should really check them out... wat better way to understand life...
then to understand Death...
i know God is good n all.. but the Devil is just so much coolier..
with such a huge army... i wonder y they havent stormed the gates of Heaven yet...
oh well...~
666
Friday, June 16, 2006
the girL~
Every once in a while.. i get to see her... the girL~
i admire her frm a distance never wanting to go close..
i watch her as she heads towards the crowd.. but i never lose sight of her....
her beauty so natural & innocent..~
her hair was soft as silk...~
her body.... posed n seductive~
her smile.. so sweet n sincere....~
and her eyes...
oh her eyes~
So full of light...
her gaze alone could calm a raging bull...
her stare... so tantalizing... u couldnt look away.....~
she was the perfect embodiment of Beauty, Blood & Flesh....
Just like a glass of wine: Sweet, SOft & fresh...
She walked with a captivative stride across the field...
her body moving so gracefully with every step...
her brown hair bounces thru the breeze..
her tender lips so glossy & moist...
Sometimes she would see me.... our eyes would meet... & she would send a smile my way tat would drive me insane...
Her Voice... was as soft n sweet as honey & sugar..
As she spoke, I cess to hear anything else....
It is like music to my ears~
i understood every word she said.. then with one look into her eyes.. forget everything all over again..~
She was drowning me with her stare...~
i loved it...
her skin was smooth & flawless...
& her touch so gentle & mesmerizing... overcoming my body with an enchantment that was hard to restain....~
I think of her when she's not around... everywhere i go .. everything i do... she's on my mind... in my head... in my dreams... every girl i see reminds me of her~
Absences makes the heart grow fonder...~
Every Day feels like a yr.. Every moment.. is an eternity~
But i still wait.. patiently... longingly.. to see her again...
With every encounter... i learn alittle bit more about her..... maybe in time she'd feel the same way.... or maybe she already does...~
Until the next time we meet...
until i see her again...or until she sees me...
Everlasting in my dreams: the girL~
i admire her frm a distance never wanting to go close..
i watch her as she heads towards the crowd.. but i never lose sight of her....
her beauty so natural & innocent..~
her hair was soft as silk...~
her body.... posed n seductive~
her smile.. so sweet n sincere....~
and her eyes...
oh her eyes~
So full of light...
her gaze alone could calm a raging bull...
her stare... so tantalizing... u couldnt look away.....~
she was the perfect embodiment of Beauty, Blood & Flesh....
Just like a glass of wine: Sweet, SOft & fresh...
She walked with a captivative stride across the field...
her body moving so gracefully with every step...
her brown hair bounces thru the breeze..
her tender lips so glossy & moist...
Sometimes she would see me.... our eyes would meet... & she would send a smile my way tat would drive me insane...
Her Voice... was as soft n sweet as honey & sugar..
As she spoke, I cess to hear anything else....
It is like music to my ears~
i understood every word she said.. then with one look into her eyes.. forget everything all over again..~
She was drowning me with her stare...~
i loved it...
her skin was smooth & flawless...
& her touch so gentle & mesmerizing... overcoming my body with an enchantment that was hard to restain....~
I think of her when she's not around... everywhere i go .. everything i do... she's on my mind... in my head... in my dreams... every girl i see reminds me of her~
Absences makes the heart grow fonder...~
Every Day feels like a yr.. Every moment.. is an eternity~
But i still wait.. patiently... longingly.. to see her again...
With every encounter... i learn alittle bit more about her..... maybe in time she'd feel the same way.... or maybe she already does...~
Until the next time we meet...
until i see her again...or until she sees me...
Everlasting in my dreams: the girL~
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
06/06/06 ~
"HeLL"-o everyone... today is a very special day in the history of the world...
This date 06/06/06 can onli happen once every 1000 years..
Today we celibrate one of the most important events in all of history~!!!
It is of course.. none other than...
SATAN'S BIRTHDAY !!!
HAPPY bIRTHD@y tooo YoU~
h@pPy B1rtHdaY 2 U ~
haPPy BrtHDAy to SATAN ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOO UUUUUuuuuu!!!!
Yes! tats right! today we celibrate the Birth of the DEVIL!
On this joyous occasion.. ppl all over the world are Sacrificing Virgins to Volcanos n Drinkin the blood of children to commemorate this day...
Also on this day.. all Satanic Worshipers get a 66% discount on all Wooden crosses & Goats as well as the occasional Weapons of Mass Destruction...
Oh yes, did i forgot to mention tat at 6.06pm tonight...
THE WORLD IS GONNA END!
YES! tats right! So for a limited time onli.. there will be a sale on Hang-Man ropes... Guns... Electric Chairs.. Carbon Monoxide Gas tanks & other do-it-yourself Suicide materials.. in case u wanna take urself out b4 the big BANG!
There will also be Free admission thru the Gates of HeLL for one day onli! Lucifer himself will Greet u at the Entrance .. so wat are u waitin for?!
DIE NOW!
This Gr8 Offer onli lasts till midnight tonite!
DOnt miss tis chance to spend ur after-life condemed to face everlasting punishment & DOOM while suffering eternal Damnation in the Firery Depths Of HELL..
FOR ALL OF ETERNITY~!!!!
Miss this chance & u'll have to commit Mass Murder or Blow SHit up not to mention spending ur days alive rotting in jail for YEARS b4 u could ever get a chance to stand beside Satan.... ~
Heaven is Overrated.. HeLL is the PLace to Be....~
As Hitler Once said...
"Life's A Bitch... & then u Die... so Fuck the world & LETS GET HIGH!"
Fre3ze (ur Lord & Master) OuT!~
This date 06/06/06 can onli happen once every 1000 years..
Today we celibrate one of the most important events in all of history~!!!
It is of course.. none other than...
SATAN'S BIRTHDAY !!!
HAPPY bIRTHD@y tooo YoU~
h@pPy B1rtHdaY 2 U ~
haPPy BrtHDAy to SATAN ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOO UUUUUuuuuu!!!!
Yes! tats right! today we celibrate the Birth of the DEVIL!
On this joyous occasion.. ppl all over the world are Sacrificing Virgins to Volcanos n Drinkin the blood of children to commemorate this day...
Also on this day.. all Satanic Worshipers get a 66% discount on all Wooden crosses & Goats as well as the occasional Weapons of Mass Destruction...
Oh yes, did i forgot to mention tat at 6.06pm tonight...
THE WORLD IS GONNA END!
YES! tats right! So for a limited time onli.. there will be a sale on Hang-Man ropes... Guns... Electric Chairs.. Carbon Monoxide Gas tanks & other do-it-yourself Suicide materials.. in case u wanna take urself out b4 the big BANG!
There will also be Free admission thru the Gates of HeLL for one day onli! Lucifer himself will Greet u at the Entrance .. so wat are u waitin for?!
DIE NOW!
This Gr8 Offer onli lasts till midnight tonite!
DOnt miss tis chance to spend ur after-life condemed to face everlasting punishment & DOOM while suffering eternal Damnation in the Firery Depths Of HELL..
FOR ALL OF ETERNITY~!!!!
Miss this chance & u'll have to commit Mass Murder or Blow SHit up not to mention spending ur days alive rotting in jail for YEARS b4 u could ever get a chance to stand beside Satan.... ~
Heaven is Overrated.. HeLL is the PLace to Be....~
As Hitler Once said...
"Life's A Bitch... & then u Die... so Fuck the world & LETS GET HIGH!"
Fre3ze (ur Lord & Master) OuT!~
Sunday, June 04, 2006
World through my eyes~
i couldn't get any work done this morning...~
Felt tired n weary but the coffee kept me awake... at around half-past noon... i decided to take a walk downstairs my home... get a little fresh air...maybe tat way i could concentrate better...
Brought some books down as well as a half-full Can of Nescafe & a pack of Marlboro Lights with 8 sticks inside...
The 1st floor button in one of the lifts was a little screwy... it wouldn't light up.. so i had to press the 2nd floor n walk down one lvl... i made my way down to the 1st floor n wandered around the area a little... found a nice cosy spot located in the middle of all the blocks...
The place was pretty shady unfortunatly the table there was dirty... but i decided to set up camp there anyway...
It was a nice spot... on the right was the car park... on my left was my old secondary sch n more cars.... infront of me was a patch of grass with 2 huge trees in it....
The scenery was beautiful....It felt very peaceful...
May not seem like much to look at... but i guess this was one of those things where u had to be there to understand...
The afternoon Sun shone down like an inferno... but the temperature was'nt hot.. instead.. it had a calming warmth to it.....
The air was dry n breezy...The wind blew warm gust of heat that fluttered the pages of my books...
I lit up my 1st cigarette n just sat there to observe..... i saw 2 birds ( those little black ones with yellow beaks tat like to hop around alot ) chasin each other infront of me.. i watched how they seem to shift their little heads vigoriously in search of something we humans probably couldnt detect.... they seemed to be hunting for something.. or maybe playin some bird game of hide-n-seek...
It was cute...~
i tried luring one of them closer with my pencil but it just stared at me curiously .... so i flicked my cigarette bud at one of them n they both flew away...hehehehe........~
I opened my book n started to go thru all the notes i had written during lesson time... taking little smoke breaks in between...
2nd stick...
Saw a couple of ppl walk by... mothers fetchin her kids to sunday tution classes... Maids carrying buckets of water down to wash cars... Familys where goin to church or visiting relatives.....It was a Sunday after all... Sunday was always "Family Day"... All this stuff seemed very normal.... but somehow it amused me~
3rd Stick...
some lady asked me how to get to blk 456... i just pointed in some direction n told her it was that way~
Even though i've lived in this area for over 4 yrs... i dont even know anything about it... tat kinda freaked me out... but i didnt really care... i was more interested in watchin the ants infront of me run around as i chased them with my cigarette bud...
4th Stick...
by the 4th stick i had formed a little mountain of cig buds at the corner of the wall where i had flicked all the buds... the ants had all evapourated n i was about to call it a day when i this garbage truck came..
It was a big & red truck tat made this loud beeping noise everytime it backed up towards the place where all the junk was...
i watched how the trash guys unloaded all the junk into the back of the truck b4 they themselves hopped onto its side & headed over to the next block...
it was fun~
Afterwards, I felt kinda bad for flickin my cig buds everywhere... but i didnt really do anything about it...
5th stick....
i had stopped studying... even though i had onli spend about an hr revising.. i had learnt more in this hr than wat i would normally learn in a whole day of sch...
i explored around the patch of grass infront of me...
Saw a snail n a lizard & collected a few cool lookin rocks...
It felt very pleasent being this close to nature.. it was a very captivating feeling... even though it was just a little patch of grass with 2 trees & a couple of bugs in it...
The world truly is a beautiful place.... its not really wat u see.. but how u see things...
I realised something as i took another puff, the irony of it all.... i wanted to protect this place.. this enviroment... i wanted to live to see it grow.. into an even more beautiful place...
But here i was..killing myself slowly with every breath i take... polluting the air with every exhale...
Why are ppl so oblivious of their surroundings... no one ever stops to smell the roses anymore...
i wanted to protect this place... but i just didnt care enough to do anything about it... there were 3 sticks left but i decided to leave them for antoher day... as I inhaled tat last bit of death... i stubbed it out into the trash can this time....
It was the least i could do...~
Felt tired n weary but the coffee kept me awake... at around half-past noon... i decided to take a walk downstairs my home... get a little fresh air...maybe tat way i could concentrate better...
Brought some books down as well as a half-full Can of Nescafe & a pack of Marlboro Lights with 8 sticks inside...
The 1st floor button in one of the lifts was a little screwy... it wouldn't light up.. so i had to press the 2nd floor n walk down one lvl... i made my way down to the 1st floor n wandered around the area a little... found a nice cosy spot located in the middle of all the blocks...
The place was pretty shady unfortunatly the table there was dirty... but i decided to set up camp there anyway...
It was a nice spot... on the right was the car park... on my left was my old secondary sch n more cars.... infront of me was a patch of grass with 2 huge trees in it....
The scenery was beautiful....It felt very peaceful...
May not seem like much to look at... but i guess this was one of those things where u had to be there to understand...
The afternoon Sun shone down like an inferno... but the temperature was'nt hot.. instead.. it had a calming warmth to it.....
The air was dry n breezy...The wind blew warm gust of heat that fluttered the pages of my books...
I lit up my 1st cigarette n just sat there to observe..... i saw 2 birds ( those little black ones with yellow beaks tat like to hop around alot ) chasin each other infront of me.. i watched how they seem to shift their little heads vigoriously in search of something we humans probably couldnt detect.... they seemed to be hunting for something.. or maybe playin some bird game of hide-n-seek...
It was cute...~
i tried luring one of them closer with my pencil but it just stared at me curiously .... so i flicked my cigarette bud at one of them n they both flew away...hehehehe........~
I opened my book n started to go thru all the notes i had written during lesson time... taking little smoke breaks in between...
2nd stick...
Saw a couple of ppl walk by... mothers fetchin her kids to sunday tution classes... Maids carrying buckets of water down to wash cars... Familys where goin to church or visiting relatives.....It was a Sunday after all... Sunday was always "Family Day"... All this stuff seemed very normal.... but somehow it amused me~
3rd Stick...
some lady asked me how to get to blk 456... i just pointed in some direction n told her it was that way~
Even though i've lived in this area for over 4 yrs... i dont even know anything about it... tat kinda freaked me out... but i didnt really care... i was more interested in watchin the ants infront of me run around as i chased them with my cigarette bud...
4th Stick...
by the 4th stick i had formed a little mountain of cig buds at the corner of the wall where i had flicked all the buds... the ants had all evapourated n i was about to call it a day when i this garbage truck came..
It was a big & red truck tat made this loud beeping noise everytime it backed up towards the place where all the junk was...
i watched how the trash guys unloaded all the junk into the back of the truck b4 they themselves hopped onto its side & headed over to the next block...
it was fun~
Afterwards, I felt kinda bad for flickin my cig buds everywhere... but i didnt really do anything about it...
5th stick....
i had stopped studying... even though i had onli spend about an hr revising.. i had learnt more in this hr than wat i would normally learn in a whole day of sch...
i explored around the patch of grass infront of me...
Saw a snail n a lizard & collected a few cool lookin rocks...
It felt very pleasent being this close to nature.. it was a very captivating feeling... even though it was just a little patch of grass with 2 trees & a couple of bugs in it...
The world truly is a beautiful place.... its not really wat u see.. but how u see things...
I realised something as i took another puff, the irony of it all.... i wanted to protect this place.. this enviroment... i wanted to live to see it grow.. into an even more beautiful place...
But here i was..killing myself slowly with every breath i take... polluting the air with every exhale...
Why are ppl so oblivious of their surroundings... no one ever stops to smell the roses anymore...
i wanted to protect this place... but i just didnt care enough to do anything about it... there were 3 sticks left but i decided to leave them for antoher day... as I inhaled tat last bit of death... i stubbed it out into the trash can this time....
It was the least i could do...~
My Mother~
My Mom went on a vacation to Hong Kong 2 days ago with my aunt... they were gonna meet my uncle, hu was currently workin there n had an apartment in HK which, i was told, was where they'll be stayin...
I have always told my Mom how happy i would if she'd went on a holiday without me... i could have the whole house to myself... no one to interrupt me when im watchin tv.. no one to tell me to pick up my clothes on the floor when im bz playin video games or when im amusing myself in someway...
I always thought it would be cool... not to have someone to tell u wat to do....
& it was... the 1st 2 days i barely even noticed she was gone..
When she was still in Singapore, she'd go off to work at 7.30 in the morning.. n come home at around 10pm... sometimes at 6 or 8 if she's lucky... during which, i would slack at home.. waitin for her to come back n spend sometime with me...
& when she did came back... she'd start askin me to wash up the dishes i left in the sink ... & to go do my work... or to go tidy my room...
It was annoying as hell....~
Then i'd wish she would've just stayed at work...
I'd ususally jokingly threaten to quit sch n go join the army so i can live away frm her... but she'd always tell me to remember to pack " ur mother " b4 i leave for camp...~
Anyway, the 1st 2 days.. i barely noticed she was gone... when i wake up.. she was gone.. when i went to bed... she'd return.....
The 1st 2 days i must admit.....was a Blast~
My Father & Sis where both workin as well... so i'll have the whole house to my self.. every day from the time i got back frm sch till the time my father came back... now.. im not really close with my father... & he'd always just lock himself in his room all the time.. so i guess tat still counts as me having the house to myself... as for my Sis.. she gets home at around 11.30pm... which is cool too since she always takes over the TV n computer once she returns.... & i do give in to her demands.... i dont like to fight with family...
I spent my alone time just lazyin around at home.. doing wat i wanted without any interruption.. without any disturbance... i felt peaceful... i felt free~
i could turn the volume of the TV or radio to the Max... i could leave my shit lying around without them bothering anyone... i could smoke freely in my own house...
hell.. i could even run around naked n start doing cart-wheels without anyone batting an eye....
I was free~
ONe day.. my mom called frm HK.. it was a Saturday morining at around 9.30am... the ringing woke me up... she'd call to check up on me.. she asked how i was n if she wanted her to buy anything frm HK...
I was barely awake n couldnt really rememember wat else she said.. onli tat she was eating Dim Sum at some fancy restaraunt i think... oh.. n tat she also bought me a
T-shirt...
i wanted to go back to bed... my head was hurtin frm the night b4 when my sister was watchin some lame ass chinese gameshow at 4 in the morning cause she couldnt sleep...
i told her everything was cool back home n to come back soon... then i went off to my bed... tats when it happened...
i started to think of my mom n how she was doing in HK... is she safe? was she having Fun? u know 2 be honest, she didnt sound very happy when we conversed on the phone.. she sounded kinda bored... in fact...or maybe the bad reception just made her voice sound tat way~
That made me worried... was she not havin fun in a foreign country?
Did something happen to make her upset?
Did someone cause my mother to become unhappy in anyway when she was in HK...?
THen tat made me a little angry..
Hu would have done something to upset my mom...?
i knew she was such an innocent n sweet lady....the perfect target for criminals...
She was too nice for her own good... i always told her tat.... she'd always donate to charity & help people n stuff... even simple things like.. holdin the lift door open for someone or lettin them jump ahead in queue...
It was hard to believe i was related to her... cause i am NOT like tat...
She had such a positive thinking towards everthing... she had hope tat bad things would get better... n if they didnt .. it'd make her feel sad n disappointed...
I hated to see her disappointed... because she kept having her hopes destroyed... i told her to stop it.. to stop hoping all the time.. to live in the real world & not some fantasy land of dreams n opportunities...
She was always so stubborn...~
I couldnt picture wat could have happened over there tat would make her upset, if she ever was upset in the 1st place.... but i did know wat i would do to the person if i ever got a hold of him...
I believe tat u cant continue living if u didnt have someone in ur life worth dying for... tat person would be her...~
I love my mother very much.. and, believe me or not, would KILL hu ever tat causes any form of harm or pain to my mother or any of my family members...
I WILL Kill you~
I called her later tat day.. i told her i missed her n wished her a safe n happy (not to mention fast..) journey home... she sounded happy n told me to go study hard.
This was the 1st time in a long time i had felt this alone....
I didnt like feeling free anymore... i wanted some one to tell me wat to do.. to boss me around...
My Mom will be coming back in another 2 days time.... i guess i could look on the bright side n enjoy the freedom i still have....
i've never written anything about my mother b4... this is probably the 1st story i've written about her... Consider it a belated mother's day gift... a gift i wish she never gets to read... it would just be too embarassing....
I end my little story about my Mom by wishing all the mothers out there a safe life.....
& to say tat my Mom is better then urs... neh neh....
oh yeah... b4 i sign out... i would just like to remind everyone...
Dont Ever FUCK With My Family~
Fre3ze... Out~
x(Dedicated to my Mom)x
I have always told my Mom how happy i would if she'd went on a holiday without me... i could have the whole house to myself... no one to interrupt me when im watchin tv.. no one to tell me to pick up my clothes on the floor when im bz playin video games or when im amusing myself in someway...
I always thought it would be cool... not to have someone to tell u wat to do....
& it was... the 1st 2 days i barely even noticed she was gone..
When she was still in Singapore, she'd go off to work at 7.30 in the morning.. n come home at around 10pm... sometimes at 6 or 8 if she's lucky... during which, i would slack at home.. waitin for her to come back n spend sometime with me...
& when she did came back... she'd start askin me to wash up the dishes i left in the sink ... & to go do my work... or to go tidy my room...
It was annoying as hell....~
Then i'd wish she would've just stayed at work...
I'd ususally jokingly threaten to quit sch n go join the army so i can live away frm her... but she'd always tell me to remember to pack " ur mother " b4 i leave for camp...~
Anyway, the 1st 2 days.. i barely noticed she was gone... when i wake up.. she was gone.. when i went to bed... she'd return.....
The 1st 2 days i must admit.....was a Blast~
My Father & Sis where both workin as well... so i'll have the whole house to my self.. every day from the time i got back frm sch till the time my father came back... now.. im not really close with my father... & he'd always just lock himself in his room all the time.. so i guess tat still counts as me having the house to myself... as for my Sis.. she gets home at around 11.30pm... which is cool too since she always takes over the TV n computer once she returns.... & i do give in to her demands.... i dont like to fight with family...
I spent my alone time just lazyin around at home.. doing wat i wanted without any interruption.. without any disturbance... i felt peaceful... i felt free~
i could turn the volume of the TV or radio to the Max... i could leave my shit lying around without them bothering anyone... i could smoke freely in my own house...
hell.. i could even run around naked n start doing cart-wheels without anyone batting an eye....
I was free~
ONe day.. my mom called frm HK.. it was a Saturday morining at around 9.30am... the ringing woke me up... she'd call to check up on me.. she asked how i was n if she wanted her to buy anything frm HK...
I was barely awake n couldnt really rememember wat else she said.. onli tat she was eating Dim Sum at some fancy restaraunt i think... oh.. n tat she also bought me a
T-shirt...
i wanted to go back to bed... my head was hurtin frm the night b4 when my sister was watchin some lame ass chinese gameshow at 4 in the morning cause she couldnt sleep...
i told her everything was cool back home n to come back soon... then i went off to my bed... tats when it happened...
i started to think of my mom n how she was doing in HK... is she safe? was she having Fun? u know 2 be honest, she didnt sound very happy when we conversed on the phone.. she sounded kinda bored... in fact...or maybe the bad reception just made her voice sound tat way~
That made me worried... was she not havin fun in a foreign country?
Did something happen to make her upset?
Did someone cause my mother to become unhappy in anyway when she was in HK...?
THen tat made me a little angry..
Hu would have done something to upset my mom...?
i knew she was such an innocent n sweet lady....the perfect target for criminals...
She was too nice for her own good... i always told her tat.... she'd always donate to charity & help people n stuff... even simple things like.. holdin the lift door open for someone or lettin them jump ahead in queue...
It was hard to believe i was related to her... cause i am NOT like tat...
She had such a positive thinking towards everthing... she had hope tat bad things would get better... n if they didnt .. it'd make her feel sad n disappointed...
I hated to see her disappointed... because she kept having her hopes destroyed... i told her to stop it.. to stop hoping all the time.. to live in the real world & not some fantasy land of dreams n opportunities...
She was always so stubborn...~
I couldnt picture wat could have happened over there tat would make her upset, if she ever was upset in the 1st place.... but i did know wat i would do to the person if i ever got a hold of him...
I believe tat u cant continue living if u didnt have someone in ur life worth dying for... tat person would be her...~
I love my mother very much.. and, believe me or not, would KILL hu ever tat causes any form of harm or pain to my mother or any of my family members...
I WILL Kill you~
I called her later tat day.. i told her i missed her n wished her a safe n happy (not to mention fast..) journey home... she sounded happy n told me to go study hard.
This was the 1st time in a long time i had felt this alone....
I didnt like feeling free anymore... i wanted some one to tell me wat to do.. to boss me around...
My Mom will be coming back in another 2 days time.... i guess i could look on the bright side n enjoy the freedom i still have....
i've never written anything about my mother b4... this is probably the 1st story i've written about her... Consider it a belated mother's day gift... a gift i wish she never gets to read... it would just be too embarassing....
I end my little story about my Mom by wishing all the mothers out there a safe life.....
& to say tat my Mom is better then urs... neh neh....
oh yeah... b4 i sign out... i would just like to remind everyone...
Dont Ever FUCK With My Family~
Fre3ze... Out~
x(Dedicated to my Mom)x
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Ever Wondered If.......... ( Santa Claus was Real~)
Im sure u all know hu Santa Claus is... that fat jolly guy tat lives in the NOrth Pole n gives kids toys every Chirstmas... yeah... good O'saint Nick...
Now.. imagine he was real...
& he was living in the REAL World..
by REAL world i mean present day.. like 2006.. imagine him now...
1st off .. since Santa has been around since ... i dunno... since god was invented..
So by now.. he must be old as a fuckin dinosaur..
Poor Poor Santa...~
Imagine him.. so old.. n weak.. barely able to make it to the front door...
He lives in a cold n isolated place.. never to be found by civilisation.. n him.. staying there.. year after year after year... without ever having contact with the outside world... except for tat one day every year...
Imagine a race of Elves tat live in these Ice Caverns... making invisible toys for all yr round n forcing a poor.. old.. & weak man to deliver these gifts to children in every house of every town.. of every city ... of every country.. all in one endless night...
Imagine him sobbing & protesting to the Elves, hu unfortunately ...doesnt even speak his language, but converse in their own undistinguishable Tongue...begging them for him to be set free from their necromantic rituals of pleasing children around the world...
Imagine Santa.. tired... & in despair... feeling sorrowful & hopelessness...
He wanted to die...
but the Elves' magic kept him alive... kept him isolated from the world... onli letting him out once a year but would be fiercly guarded by 10 Harrowing Beast bred & raised by the Elves to transport him frm the Icy Depths of their hidden cave in the North Pole.. to the outside world...
Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen & the most horrid of them all... Rudoph (the one with the "Red Nose")
THese 10 Beasts stood 12 metres high with grotesque features.. especially the one they so simply named.. "Rudoph the Red", the leader of the hideous pack... who's front horn was the size of a fully grown man & glowed with a nightmarish colour of Red ...
It can be seen miles away as he leads his pack of Diablolical Minions across the dark night skies... a glowing Red penetrating the icy winds.. Revealing the path ahead in an evil dim colour of Blood Red...
St. Nicholas envied Loki,
(who.. as punishment for his evil deeds..
was binded to 3 slabs of stone with a snake placed over his head so that its venom would pour onto him.. searing the GOd of Mischief's face...)
Judas
(hu betrayed Jeus n was Crucified)
& Prometheus...
(who rebelled against Zeus & as punishment, an Eagle of the Caucasus would tear at his flesh and clawed his liver.... Each night the torn flesh would mend & the Eagle would begin anew at the first touch of Dawn...)
For his punishment.. was much harsher....~
So every year.. on the 25th of December..... let us put the Joy of Chirstmas aside & mourn for
o'saint Nicholas... for he is just a poor poor man.. hu cannot live.. & cannot Die...
Think about this the next time u want to celebrate Xmas...
Imagine... if Santa was real.....
Ho ho ho~
Now.. imagine he was real...
& he was living in the REAL World..
by REAL world i mean present day.. like 2006.. imagine him now...
1st off .. since Santa has been around since ... i dunno... since god was invented..
So by now.. he must be old as a fuckin dinosaur..
Poor Poor Santa...~
Imagine him.. so old.. n weak.. barely able to make it to the front door...
He lives in a cold n isolated place.. never to be found by civilisation.. n him.. staying there.. year after year after year... without ever having contact with the outside world... except for tat one day every year...
Imagine a race of Elves tat live in these Ice Caverns... making invisible toys for all yr round n forcing a poor.. old.. & weak man to deliver these gifts to children in every house of every town.. of every city ... of every country.. all in one endless night...
Imagine him sobbing & protesting to the Elves, hu unfortunately ...doesnt even speak his language, but converse in their own undistinguishable Tongue...begging them for him to be set free from their necromantic rituals of pleasing children around the world...
Imagine Santa.. tired... & in despair... feeling sorrowful & hopelessness...
He wanted to die...
but the Elves' magic kept him alive... kept him isolated from the world... onli letting him out once a year but would be fiercly guarded by 10 Harrowing Beast bred & raised by the Elves to transport him frm the Icy Depths of their hidden cave in the North Pole.. to the outside world...
Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen & the most horrid of them all... Rudoph (the one with the "Red Nose")
THese 10 Beasts stood 12 metres high with grotesque features.. especially the one they so simply named.. "Rudoph the Red", the leader of the hideous pack... who's front horn was the size of a fully grown man & glowed with a nightmarish colour of Red ...
It can be seen miles away as he leads his pack of Diablolical Minions across the dark night skies... a glowing Red penetrating the icy winds.. Revealing the path ahead in an evil dim colour of Blood Red...
St. Nicholas envied Loki,
(who.. as punishment for his evil deeds..
was binded to 3 slabs of stone with a snake placed over his head so that its venom would pour onto him.. searing the GOd of Mischief's face...)
Judas
(hu betrayed Jeus n was Crucified)
& Prometheus...
(who rebelled against Zeus & as punishment, an Eagle of the Caucasus would tear at his flesh and clawed his liver.... Each night the torn flesh would mend & the Eagle would begin anew at the first touch of Dawn...)
For his punishment.. was much harsher....~
So every year.. on the 25th of December..... let us put the Joy of Chirstmas aside & mourn for
o'saint Nicholas... for he is just a poor poor man.. hu cannot live.. & cannot Die...
Think about this the next time u want to celebrate Xmas...
Imagine... if Santa was real.....
Ho ho ho~
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