butterfly~

i had an interesting time this past week... went to places i didn't think i'd go, met lots of new ppl... it was a cool experience, n i enjoyed myself~

new year's in like 2 days.. i haven't made any plans or resolutions, just gonna take it as it comes like i would every other year... and like every other year, this one's pretty much the same... nothin unique about it, nothin outstanding... come to think about it, this year's been pretty bad.. dropped outta sch, the whole stabbing thing...

i dont feel that the new year's goin to change anything.. never did feel the "magic" in the anticipation of a new year... cept in 2000 when the whole Y2K thing was goin on.. but when the clock struck midnight n the bombs didn't go off, it became just another normal year.... but wadever right~

i had 4 dinners this night... mom cooked the 1st, had maggi noodles an hr later, left over food from yesterday, then ordered mcdonalds 2 hrs later... i wanted to win that 10 grand from the ring & win thing... but who was i kiddin~

"I Am Legend" was a cool, haven't seen a good movie in a long time.... it was refreshing~ not the typical gunz ablazin' zombie horror flick, it was very emotionally drivin... so yeah, i liked it alot... maybe i'll go download some bob marley songs from the movie.... maybe not~



"I promised a friend I would say hello to you today..."










"hello..."

bitter grounds~

i didn't have a very good day the other day... got a msg from one of my colleges sayin the starhub job is cancelled... so i dont have a job no more, which definatly blows... everyone went down to the place to ask for explainations n compensations.. it was ugly~

all our plans were pretty much ruined... so much for that~ then i heard gynn got into a car accident and hurt her back, it wasn't tat serious but still~ met up for dinner at pizza hut, on the way there some deuchbag burnt my finger with his cigarette bud by accident, i already wasn't in a good mood then....

but dinner was cool, got a nice window seat to look out of.. and the conversation was nice... it's been awhile since i had a decent one~ She also introduced me to a job at Candy Empire~ lots of sweet girls hang out at candy shops, so tat'll be cool~


i dropped my ear stud down the sink when i took it out at home... as if my luck wasn't already bad.... it was like a final "F you" from 'the man' before he left me alone-_-


wadever~

20/12/2007~

my mom, pounced onto my bed this morning to wake me up... she said something i couldnt really make out since i was still driftin in n out of it, but the only thing i remembered from it was tat it was loud... my mom's has those kinda loud-sounding voices that even if she whipsered, u could still hear it... n u know how sensitive ur eyes and ears are to light n sound in the morning, not cool -_-

she'd be all, "get up aaron... *something something~"
then i'd just cover my head with the sheets n tell her i dont wanna go to sch -_-~

after awhile, she gave up n went to do the same thing at my sister's room... i could hear them talking n moving around.. it was noisy n it made me feel really unnerving... & just like that, my morning was ruined~

i hate being woken up unaturally.... well, not really 'unnaturally' more like unexpectedly... like if i had to get up at 6am the next morning, i'd set my alarm, n i'd wake up... i'll be tired, but i knew i had to wake up.. so in tat sense, im not disturbed.. and i luv starting the day that way~

but today i woke up to the sounds of the mother n sister's chatter n gossip as they watched their korean shows in the living room.... & with the volume so loud, i could hear every word spoken by the actors... every flamboyant tone used to express that incomprehensible tongue of theirs... the ching-ness was seeping into my room n crawling up the pillars of my bed, poking n proding at my tolerence to it... n tat was it, got up... n scowled at them on the way to the bathroom~

they didnt seem to care...
n neither did i once i made it to the bathroom~

it was cold... n it was awesome..... i luv morning rains, so much so tat i'd wake up to experience it rather then sleep thru its comfort~ which was why i was glad i was awake....

spent most of the afternoon readin my comics n savin the world~(of warcraft)... theres alotta movies i wanna watch... old one and new....

-Batman the Dark knight
-I am Legend
-American Gangster

and all those foreign films i always wanted to watch but cant find.... the internet's an amazing tool :)

dinner the night b4 was fish n potatos~
i underestimated the amount of mashed potatos, 3 potatos could make.. that portion's probably onli 1/2 of a potato~
which remains me, i gotta get a potato masher gizmo thingy~


nice lil lemon to top it off with too~
n i ate it at 9pm when everyone was still at work n i lit candles n shit while watchin an episode of Grey's anatomy i taped the night b4~

i love having the whole house to myself.. unfortunate today everyone's home.... apparently its a public holiday today... still dont know which one though~

you put the lime in the coke n u drink it all together....
i put the lemon in the coke n it just tastes sour -_-

the cave~

spagetti n meat balls... again, it tastes great, cause i made it.. and everyone knows, anything u make by yrself will always look n taste good... & it actually doesnt look tat bad compared to the grey chicken from the other day... plus those meatballs are handmade too... not some canned one... wait, do meatballs even come in cans?


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cleared my room the other day... took off everything from the shelves n drawers... even unplugged sephira~ and the fan too to give'em a wipe... sweeped n mopped.. dusted n cleaned everything... changed the sheets, made the bed... tossed out all the crap i didnt want n re-organized all the crap i did~

took like 3 hrs but it felt accomplishing... my room was clean :)

should've taken a 'before' picture, but i dont think u'd wanna see that...

And check out all the comics i got, i forgot how many i actually owned... this is like 3 drawers n a "portable-cabinet-from-under-the-bed" full of'em~


i was super proud of my collection back in the day,when ppl would ask...
"so wad's ur hobbby aaron?"
then i'd tell'em...
"i collect comics~"
"oh, u mean manga?"
"last time i checked, Batman was from Gotham, not Tokyo -_-"

n i had a kick ass collection of comics.. from the popular X-men & Spider-man to Ninja Turtles & Archie... then there were just weird ones~

n here are a couple of the First Issues..
1st issue of AquaMan, 1st issue of X-Force, 1st X-FActor, 1st Ultimate X-men, 1st issue of Archie & Friends paperback edition~


i bet it'll be worth alotta money if i sell everything... n i think i should since i read them all n i dont really have much space to keep'em in~ but then again, i dunno if i'd have the heart to sell them... or if ppl still wanna buy stuff like this... hu cares about the x-men when u got an x-box 360~

anyway, my room is super clean now, im not letting anyone step into it n touch my stuff~ not even family or friends... untill it gets dirty again, then yeah, mi kasa su kasa~

then u can go roll around on my bed or wadever, i wouldn't care~

so yeah.. too cool for sch so im stayin home~

nothing, like something, happens everywhere~

there was a documentary last night on arts central about the Davinci Code, and it got me all thinkin about god, and religion~ so i went n googled the whole conspiracy theory thing to decide for myself whether or not any of this was real...

there was pages upon pages of historical fact and speculations... words like the "Priory of Sion" & "Opus Dei" popped up alot... analytic references on how Mary Magdalne was the real 'Holy Grail', not to mention all critizim on whether or not there was some eliged secret msg in his painting of 'The Last Supper'~

i skimmed thru all of tat, & more... but i didnt understand anything~ i guess since im not really a religious person, i dont have much background knowledge to compare anything to~ but it was still pretty interesting... so i went n googled other stuff about Anthropology...

and, as i went on, going from page to page, clickin on link upon link... i noticed that a majority of all the content was mainly theoretical~ it was just, speculation upon speculation... & afterall, there was no REAL right or wrong ans, it was just made up of ppl's different opinions and idealogies of different situations, depending on wadever the subject at hand was~

like the Law for example, it wasn't just one guy that made up all the rules... it was a grp of ppl.. a majority, that sat down n decided wad was right n wad was wrong... and it keeps adjusting as the times change, as currency and culture alters~

but tat doesnt make it flawless, it changes, but it doesnt improve... at least not drastically~ i would say that the study of humanities rely mostly on culture to determine its next move... wad would be considered acceptable then, might not be said the same now... whether or not wad music is 'cool', or wad is considered as Art was probably percived in a different way in, in a different civilization of a different time~

and it wasn't just about our diversities, there was more too it... something bigger... there was space and the stars, Genetics and behavior~ Collaborating with cultural significance, the natural & social science of humans have purpose & intent to unlocking wad we as human beings really are..

Is it wad u do that defies us as individuals? most of us would like to believe that... but wad if it's not? wad if destiny was conceivable? wad if fate was in play? would we even be able to comprehend such an allegation?

hu's to say its not, n if so, hu's to deprive us of knowing it? Who's to say that we dont have the right to know the meaning behind our existance... wad if aliens really existed? if u knew the answer, would u tell everyone? afterall, ppl have the right to know... hu's to say anything about anyone?

this reminded me of a conversation i had with vic, about why Wars were started... which then lead to a deliberation on President Bush's administration and ended with an indept disscusion on Hitler's life as a child~

anyway, the point being, had different choices been made, had President Bush chose Not to retaliate agains the 911 attack, would Americans still be protesting FOR the war instead? i mean, i'd be pissed if the goverment doesnt do anything when my country's attacked.... or would they be content with the decision of peace? had 911 not even occur, would there still be terrorism? if Hitler didnt start WWII, would the world be a better place? or would some other conflict just take its place?

is it really fate that lead to these events? is it destiny? were these event inevitable? or were they all simply just moments of bad decisions making?

which ever side u choose to believe in, there'll always be a moment where we'd decided that, 'hey... maybe there is some unknown force tellin me wad to do'.. but then again, maybe there isn't~

knowing all this just makes u see how trival the problems in our lifes are... if u got a "D-" for ur math quiz, if the person u like doesnt like u back...

so wad... is that something to cry over? perhaps... is it something to die over?.. hardly~ compared to the world n its mysteries, our personal problems are insignificant because we dont realise wad goes on outside of our lil lives.. how could we?~

n its ok tat we cant... maybe we're not suppose to~ we already have such a hard time dealing with our own problems, let alone everyone else's... so, if the girl i like doesnt like me back, so wad... sure i'd feel sad n disappoint n wad not... but knowing how big the world is makes it seem manageable...

then the problem doesnt seem so big anymore...

which is just fine~

dinner~

INGREDIENTS
1/2 cup cornstarch
1/4 cup water
1 1/2 teaspoons minced garlic
1 1/2 teaspoons minced fresh ginger root (didn't have ginger...)
3/4 cup white sugar
1/4 cup soy sauce
1/4 cup white wine vinegar
1/2 cup hot chicken broth
1 teaspoon MSG
3 pounds skinless, boneless chicken breast halves, cut into bite size pieces
1/2 cup soy sauce
1 teaspoon ground white pepper
1 egg
1 cup vegetable oil
2 cups chopped green onions (didn't know onions were green...)
16 chilli peppers, sun-dried (didn't have those either...)

DIRECTIONS
1.
To Make Sauce: In a large bowl combine 1/2 cup cornstarch and 1/4 cup water. Mix together. Add garlic, ginger, sugar, 1/4 cup soy sauce and white wine vinegar. Then add chicken broth and monosodium glutamate and stir all together until sugar dissolves. Refrigerate until needed.

2.
To Prepare Chicken: In a separate bowl, combine chicken, 1/2 cup soy sauce and white pepper. Stir in egg. Add 1 cup cornstarch and stir until chicken is evenly coated. Add oil to help separate chicken pieces. Divide chicken into small quantities and deep fry at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) until crispy. Drain on paper towels.

3.
To Make Mixture: Place a small amount of oil in wok and heat until wok is hot. Add scallions and dried chile peppers and stir-fry briefly. Remove sauce from refrigerator and stir. Add sauce to wok. Then add fried chicken and cook until sauce thickens (add cornstarch or water as needed until sauce is as thick as you like it).

got this recipe from allrecipes.com~
its suppose to look like this....

but it turned out like this...


tastes great though, cause i made it... so yeah~

good to be a bachelor, cept i gotta pretend no one's around me to fully enjoy the whole "living on my own" thing~


wadever...

fragile things~

wow, i totally love the weather in demember... the rain blocks out most of the sunlight in the morning so it doesnt glare much into my window.. makes the day feel like evening... which is really cool~

the sister came back... mom went to get her at the airport this morning at like 6am. but all she brought back was some candy bars... kinda lame since u went all the way to America n all u got was candy, but it was special candy.. from america.. wooooo~

i especially like the milk duds~ n the candy box with my name on it...

plus there was this... so guess it wasnt tat bad :)

she sleepin on my bed behind me now.. which is weird cause i dont like her touchin my stuff... but wadever~ cause im nice n all...

wadever~

my neighbour's daughter is kinda cute lookin... i dont really see her much cause i usually dont care~ but i passed her in the corridor the other night, n she gave me a lil smile.. it was the clearest i've seen her face n she looked pretty sweet~

imma go say hello next time if we bump into each other again... wonder how she sounds like in person~

monday's probably gonna be the last free day im gonna get till march... but everyone's in sch or at attachment, so i guess i'll just bumm at home~ but its cool... weather's nice~

imma stop here, headin out in abit...
so yeah~ happy sunday

flash backs n premenitions~

had dinner with Gynn at blk 85 a couple of nights ago.. it was cool, i missed the bcm~ then the next day we went shoppin... and she paid for everything so yayy~ lunch was cool even though we left like so many garlic bread uneaten... tcc was cool too.. i was gonna take u to the four seasons for dinner next time but u kept punching me n pinched my arm... so im not going to anymore!

tell the coin bomohs to curse me why dont u -_-~

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the sister called this morning from Las Vegas when i was still alseep, said it was scary over there n her hotel was haunted... that she was sick of burgers for breakfast n there was no chilli sauce there-_-

Nirvada is a scary place, we've all seen CSI havent we... the crimerate is high... i mean, alot of things can go wrong if u put a whole bunch of casinos in one place... just be careful, dont be an easy target.. walk tall and have one hand in ur coat pocket to act like ur packin heat n everything will be cool~

as for the ghostly hotel, how many times have we heard stories of ppl going oversea n staying in a haunted hotel, while when we stay in a local hotel, nothin happens... its just our insecurities of being in a foreign land thats playin tricks on our minds... its just like moving into a new house, the anxiety of being in an unfamilar place can lead to paranoia... its just ur sub-concious mind thinkin that theres someone watchin u from the window when in reality we're just scared to be alone~

so dearest sister, read a book, listen to music, just be cool... there are no ghosts in america, onli angels.... stop worrying urself by watchin the news all the time n scarying urself... bad shit happens, but life goes on~ keep the bible by the bed side n go get some mace tomoro or something... then buy me a cool t-shirt and booze when u get to the airport~

open ur mind n just enjoy the last few days there, cause once u get back home dim sum n kuey kuey is all ur gonna eat... spend all ur money, go shopping, go see a movie, go to a bar... just spend all ur money n have a good time~ america's the land of the free n ur can do wadever u want...

vandalise something, leave ur mark... in the hotel, on a park bench... take photos of random things... of random ppl... oh, n get me a stack of the their local press.. i wanna see how their paper looks like.... talk to strangers, they wont find it weird.. ask if u have a Qs, or if ur just bored~

oh, n write a jorunal... that always helps....
thats about all the advice i can give... email me if u cant get thru on the phone~

as told by the brother~
(i luv u cause i have to... but sometimes cause i want to~)

for the kids~

mom asked me wad i wanted to eat for breakfast this morning... so i told her i wanted "a patty... a crabby patty..." then i just laughed my ass off while she continued watchin tv~

lol

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anyway, saturday was pretty interesting~
vic's dad was part of this Charity organization n they'd planned this thing to bring a bunch of sick kids to watch "Scrooge the musical" down at the Singapore Repotory Theatre~ so i just went to help... thats right, me... doing charity.... didnt think i would bother about doing shit like this now did u... but im capable of performing good deeds, so there~


didnt really do much... all we had to do was usher the kids into the theatre.... they came by the bus loads, one after the other.... i'd figured the kids would all be like... bald and pale-lookin from all the chemo, commin out in wheelchairs with tubes in their arms n shit... but it was nothin like that...

they were all, jumpy and runnnin around all over the place with their power ranger backpacks... they seemed happy enough considering they were suppose to be sick~ even though they were holdin hands with their partners and lined up in a row, they were still jumpin around and wavin their hands about... one of them shot me with his finger, another bowed to me and said "thank u very much" like i was a prince or something.. they were just being kids, & it was really cute to watch~



once tat was done, me n vic didnt really wanna stay to watch the show, so we went to PS for dinner, then walked back... there were alot of ppl in PS... there was a live battle of the bands thing goin on outside, then a 'Winx Club' show goin on on the inside... so all the lil kids n parents were inside while the emo ppl flocked the outside~ point being, there were lots of ppl at PS....

there were lots of stuff to see in the theatre... lots of paintings n shit... and there was a alfresco bar at the back so tat was cool~




so when the show was over and all the kids came out, we had to give each of'em a goodie bag...


kids are like lil monsters... they grab shit n run around alot.. the non-sick kids were the meanest actually... friggin grabbed everything from my hand... it was the actual sick kids tat were nice and polite, saying thank you and smiling alot... especially this one girl hu had down syndrome hu didnt really say thank you out loud, she just mouthed it to me...

now, i wasnt really expecting anything when i came here, i figured "yeah, i got some time to kill... sure, lets go help some sick kids.. there might be some chickas there too.." but that girl made me feel really good about myself... i kinda understand the whole jizz of helping the needy... it felt good :)

annnyway... one by one the kiddies all left... n it was just us helpers, a couple of adults, and us young ppl~ one of the girls went up to me n said something to me in ching, i didnt really know wth she just said... plus she had her cellphone to her ear so i didnt know if she was talkin to me or not~ but she was lookin at me when she said it... then her friend said something in ching too, & from wad i managed to decifer, she said something like " i had alot of question marks on my head "

apparently cellphone girl was askin for something in one of my goodie bags... n when i just stared at her cluelessly, cellphone girl's friend laughed n said the "he looks like he's got alot of question marks on his head" thing~

so yeah, it was just a simple enough situation that happened in less than a min... but it stuck with me cause, i felt weird not being able to relate to them... n everyone speaks like that in this country... sure i can speak english very well... but sometimes its just cool to fit in~

i find it hard to relate with most ppl cause their so different in terms of language n culture~ theres onli a hand full of ppl that i can be on the same lvl with when it comes to conversation~

so we hitched a ride on one of vic's dad's friends's van... which had a couch at the back of it, which was pretty awesome... it was the 1st time i sat in a sofa in a moving vehicle, felt like a video game...

so yeah, thats it...
dont know how to end it, so im just gonna stop~



*stops

December in chair~

i love my mornings~
i love waking up in the December weather to an empty house...
Everyone's never home in the mornings... n i love it~

i love the privacy, the quietness... i love how no one's in the kitchen cookin or in the living room watchin tv... i love the stillness~

its serene and motionless... i like how i get 1st dibs on everything n not having to share it with anyone else... (food, hotwater in the bathroom, etc) but its not really wad i can DO but more of how i feel when im all alone in an empty house~

n i feel calm, safe... & it gives me hope for some reason... that today will be a good day, and if it didnt turn out tat well, there's always the next quiet morning i can wake up too....

and its nice knowing that~

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this whole week's been a whole 'runnin around' session to get my affairs in order n still balance work at the same time.... my 2nd job starts on the 4th of Dec, i gotta report to some place in Cuppage Road... where the hell is tat?

im so busy now.. its crazy... a couple of weeks ago i was just bummin around at home playin video games n watchin tv... now im going to like 2 places in one day...

im tired... and sometimes i miss school... the friends, the classes.... fooling around without a care in the world~ workin life really blows, but i feel alot more grown up.. i feel like, the choices i make now hold greater effect then the ones that did before... and because of that, the wrong choices bear larger consiquences~

oh, and another thing...
accents are such turn ons~ i say that, all the time... and its true : ) i was havin a pretty bad day at work last night, till this girl introduced herself to me.. and she had the sweetest voice i've heard in a long time... i could'nt really tell if she had an accent, but the tone of her voice made me feel really tingly inside : )

hearing her speak made me wanna talk to her even more... i asked more questions just to get to hear her voice... she had a really nice name too.. it was unique, and that just added to her feminineness~

but it was short-lived, i was busy and she had her affairs to attend to... perhaps in another place, at another time i might have gotten her no. or something... nonetheless, meeting her really made my day... n after that i got a piece of a bday cake from one of the customers cause i did a good job attending to them~

so yeah.... women are truly astonishing creatures~
especially the sweet sounding articulate ones : )