thoughts~

i've been thinkin alot about alot of things today... sch onli lasted 5hrs and the gym was closed so i headed home pretty early...

the weather...
ooh the weather~

waking up to such a cold morning almost made me feel like i was in another country... i felt so mellow... it was nice~

i took a nap right away when i got home... woke up, had a smoke by the corridor while readin my book... and all this while i was in deep thought thinking about.. about everything really... my life, my future... about family & friends...

with the weather soo fine, i just had to go sit on a park bench n ponder over the woes of life.... but i was no where near the park so i just stoned on the couch~

the point is, i realised.... no amount of planning or structuring can ever prepare u for what's to come.... that, who u are and what u do now, won't really matter once u've passed that stage of life~

i realised, tat, its all about the here and the now... about, taking chances and ultimatly just being urself, in whatever u do~ it doesnt matter wad people think, it doesnt have to be the right thing to do, its just, knowing that u made tat choice and stuck with it....

friends come and go, but thats fine... life goes on... u may despise ur family, u may hate them, (and i do hate my family...) but at the end of the day all u want is for them to come home~

waiting is, by far the hardest thing to do.... that, & not knowing... its scary to not know. But ignorance is bliss~ spare urself...

and yes, it does pay to wait... having the fortitude to wait patiently for something u really want, and when it does come..... theres no greater feeling in the world~


i guess, wad im trying to tell myself.. is to just, not think so much about stuff and just go for it... so what if things dont work out, shit happens, not the end of the world~ take that weight of ur shoulders and stop worrying about things tat may or may not even happen... u never know what would happen if u'd just try~



hmmmmm...


todays a good day~