i woke up at 3am last night for no reason, feeling all sweaty n afraid, terrified even... i dont remember having a bad dream or anything like tat... but i was really spooked...
so spooked infact that i went to take a shower... at 3 in the morning-_-.. cause i was genuinely scared... and for what, i dont even know... i just remembered tat while i was takin my bath in my half-awoken state, i kept thinkin about the exams n shit...
the paper today was... it was awful... i didnt know anything and the weather didnt make things any better... it was freezing in there~
half the time i wanted to leave cause i knew failure was inevitable and the cold was piercingly painful, but i had to stay.... i wrote line after line of made-up programming codes and bullshit theories that, to a person hu never learnt the subject before would probably believe i knew wad i was writing... but to someone hu did, it would'nt make any sense at all~
At some point, i leaned back onto my seat and clapsed my hands together to gather warmth... then, well... i sorta began praying-_-~
i was making deals inexchange for a passing grade for the paper.... after which i laughed at myself for doing it...
i havent prayed in years...~
must be the drugs messin with my head....
after the paper, i rushed to the bus stop to get a fix... it was really cold, the cigarette helped, but i cursed myself later for doing it~
im afraid... i dont know if, i'd be able to clear the rest of my papers...
bah, whatever -_-~
gawd i hate engineering...
*lights another cig~
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