look at the pretty pictures~

4 days ago...
went to the National Museum of Singapore with the bff & the turds~
"Greek Masterpieces" Gallery.. i did more stuff tat day, but i totally forgot the details, so yeah...









3 days ago...
joy riding with the bff, bff's brother & yK~
drove to a romantic rendevouz point somewhere near expo... watched the planes go by n stuff... did more stuff after tat too but im lazy to go into detail... anyway, more pictures...



2 day ago...
stewy's bday parrtayyy~ i realise i look kinda scary in photos -_-



Yesterday....
went to vivo with Stewy... there was this japanese store there called "Daiso" or something like tat which sold all sorts of random junk for $2~

Ninja Gloves for $2...
Giant chopsticks for $2...
Plastic carrots for $2....
i love that place... its so random... n i bought a pillow~

i also bought shoes n a $90 dollar shirt from Zara~ stu got some batteries....

Today...
i met sooo many ppl at work today... sec school friends, poly friends, work friends, random friends, friend's friends~

they made me wear a hat for the new Diesel Promotion... not cap, HAT.. like Justin Timberlake~ and suspenders... which is very gay n it makes my pants ride up my ass crack... but wadever~ its all good...

note to self: stop buying $90 dollar shirts... save money for tatt and future sch fees-_-

pretty.Odd~

hey... u might wanna tie ur shoe laces, the panda's are commin to get u~ sometimes when their not lookin, u can steal a cookie from their pockets...

but then again, u only get one chance at calamity~ so i'd rather u just catch the butterflies instead, at least they make ur tummy feel weird... i like the way her hair is tied in a bun.... the better to float the mountains of tangerines and wool~

i hope the gates open soon, i gotta return the guitar strings to the alcohol bunnies or they'll eat my the purple parts of my toes :(

anyway, heres the line below the waist...

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"O"

*punch~

if u had no idea wad im talkin about... ur probably hungry~

perks of work~

so err....

good news
i get to smell like the sexiest man alive everyday~

bad new
lots of creepy gay guys...

good news
even more girls :)





why am i still not in bed -_-

"i'll be back~"

went for an interview at the ĽORÉAL place in somerset yesterday... took me a long enough for me to find it too -_- probably made like 3 rounds around the entire building before i saw the entrance...

the reception area was soo "ugly betty"-ish~ there werent exactly alot of supermodels walkin around, but lots of women... in suits and designer outfits.. and french guys with funky accents... i mean, u know ur office is glamourous when u got tv screens enbedded in the walls showing advertisments of ur products in ur reception area....

waited kinda long for the person but the interview took like 5 mins... the lady was nice.. said i'd either be in Ralph Lauren or Diesel so tats cool~ met up with Rick at Plaza Sing for dinner... had'nt seen him in like months so it was cool... ate at Manhatten's Fish Market... its almost the same as Fish n' Co. but their seafood platter definately trumps F & C's....

just look at it... it was huge... plus there was a additional 'cool' factor havin the guy use a blowtorch to melt the cheesey parts infront of u...



we were already super hungryto begin with and ate every last morsel till we got sick... but it was soo worth it~ too bad there's onli like 2 outlets in the whole of sg...

went to watch "Jumper" afterwards... which is really cool... had a decent storyline n cool effects... the movie had a sort of "comic-book-turned-movie" feel.. which kinda worked well with the film... not exactly an epic tale of proportions.. but a pretty cool movie to catch nontheless... not to mention how it ended so appropriatly tat im sure there'd be a sequel to it in the next couple of years... n i'll be lookin forward to it~

all in all, i had a pretty gd time... interview for a cool job went well... met up with an old pal... had a satisfying dinner and watched a awesome movie...

so yeah..
kudos to friday nights~

nine in the afternoon~

me: "hey mom..."
mother: "what?"
me: *silence~

me: "hey MOM..."
mother: "what??"
me: *silence~

me: "mommm.."
mother: *silence~
me: "Mummy?"
mother: *silence~
me: "MOMMMMM!!!"
mother: "jiang!" (talk!)

me: "i want a burrito~"
mother: "bu yao cao lah!"
*runs away frailing arms about wildly~


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have to clean my room... cause the mother told me to... but i dont wanna... but i'm gonna have to... or the germs will get me~




no one wants a giant talkin bar of soap to appear in ur bedroom and take u away now do they....



i still want tat burrito -_-

juuuuice~

DANCE YOU YELLOW SNOWMAN DANCE!!!!


how's that for randomness....

2+2 is 9... the voice in the telephone told me dinosaurs come from empty cookie jars... and if u listen really carefully, u can hear them sing the theme song to Captain Planet~

im soo weird-_-


and thirsty....

bff~

the bff is feeling sad... and i dont know why~
i called her but she wouldn't pick up.. i texted her but she wouldn't reply...

i dont know whats bothering her... but its bothering me too~ i'd wish she'd talk to me... i'd wish she'd tell me whats gotten her so down... whether its a complicated issue i could help solve, or a bothersome individual i can "persuade" to leave u be~

i'd wish she's give me some kind of hint as to what's on her mind... talk to me, please~ its the onli way i can understand whats going on... perhaps she herself doesn't know why she's feeling this way.... i get that too... i feel down for no reason all the time... and knowing that, know that ur not alone~

im just a block away from u, 5 mins walk to ur place.... 10min if u want me to get u ben & jerry's... or perhaps a bag of kittens... i miss having dinner with u in ur kitchen.. i miss bumming in ur room and sharing a tub of Cookie Dough on ur bed with the same spoon~

and the whole time, we'd talk.... about everything... the mundane woes of life to the scandalous gossips of school~ i guess i havent been spending alot of time with u these pass few weeks... but ur my best friend, and u onli need ask, and i will try n provide, unconditionaly, cause our friendship is at that level now.. where u dont need a reason to ask me for something, nor do i require anything in return....

10 years from now, nothing's gonna change.... we'd still be having dinner at ur kitchen... we'd still be havin ice cream in ur room.... we'd still be talking about life~ nothing's going to change...

bff trumps all friends... sometimes i dont show it... but that doesnt mean it isn't true... so please... ur my best friend...




talk to me...~

imma lil teapot~

today was weird... went home from work n passed out on the bed after i ate my lunch n every thing.. then remi called askin to go for dinner... i said 'ok'~

on the bus to whitesands, there were these 2 perky teenagers from my old secondary sch sittin just infront of where i was.. a boy & a girl~ i couldn't help over hearing what they were talkin about since they were doin it really loudly... not in a vulgar way though.. think they just sound like tat naturally... anyway, the conversation was just.. soo.. stupid....

i dont even know how u explain it.. its, the kinda stupid teenage conversations about their trivial social standings and high school gossip that just makes u want to hurt them... plus the guy's voice was so friggin high.. which is soo weird cause guys with freakishly high voices have always creeped me out~

then all of a sudden they started singing... loudly too...

WEIRD!

they kept doing it all the way to the train station -_- i was behind them all the way... restraining myself from lunging at them...

the entrance of whitesands had an equally bizzare scene... amongst the crowd of ppl commin out from the mrt and those comming & going from the shoppin mall was this old brown dog... just layin there in the middle... it was kinda sad cause he looked dirty n hurt? i suppose? or he was probably just restin.... but what dog does tat? just lay there, in the middle of... well... everything~

and in that same area was this half-naked old guy singin chinese opera from a mic while his sidekick plucked on some ancient chinese thinga-ma-jig string instrument... and on the other corner.. was the dog~

WEIRD!

i know it sounds pretty normal.. just some dog.. and an old guy... but seeing both together was just weird... i mean... they.... well...its weird so.... ahhhh-_- ~ it just is, why am i even explaining myself...

had macdonalds, walked around then left.. on the way back, while waiting for the light to turn green.. there was an suv stationed behind a redlight... at the backseat, there was this dude with the windows winded down.. and he was takin pictures of us...

i dunno if it was some prank or wadever, i dont think it was.... there was like, a family inside the car, not a bunch of punks doing each other's dares and makin asses of themselves if u know wad i mean.. anyway he was using a pretty fancy camera.. with a red aiming light n flash... took like 2 pictures b4 the light went green then they drove off... that is before i waved to them & they waved back.. as if takin my picture wasnt strange enough...

WEIRD!

walked to pasir ris central to get fruit juice cause i was thirsty n i like juice... then when the guy was done juicing the watermelons, he shrieked the words "do u need a plastic bag?" in the most WEiRdesT tone... it was... high, and shrieky and sounded kinda retarded.. i said "nahh" then looked back at remi n gave him a raised eye brown...

juice was refreshing though....

it's probably pretty confusing if u just read this.. u had to be there to... to feel the awkardness of it all... but wadever, i wanted to write about it.. so i did.... and if u start reading it, and u see a pink rabbit start to form between ur eyes, then u'll know...

u'll know its commin for u.. and its gonna get u.... cause it lives in ur brain and eats on ur soul.. then u'll be beggin for the purple pencils to bring ur chicken away -_-

*awkwwwwarrrrrd....




KAY BYE!~

angsty~

im so angry... every morning.. so damn angsty~ from the moment i wake up, feels like everything's tryin to annoy me~

punk kids goin to school makin so much damn noise, ppl hu block my way when im in a hurry... u decide to stop in the middle of the pressing crowd to think where u wanan go next, wads up with that? -_-

and the morons hu wont move to the back of the freakin bus when there's so much space to stand there... wat the hell's ur problem? not glamourous enough for ya to be standing at the rear end? huh?

well fuck u~

even the birds feel like their mockin me... perchin on the railings with their twiggy legs n 3-toed talons... like their better then me cause they can fly n all -_-

im soo angsty~
and i dont even know why.... maybe its cause i killed to many kittens... then again, maybe its cause i stopped -_- murder's alway was a great way to realise one's bottled-up rage...

old people scare me... i hate it when they rush for seats in the train like their lives depended on it..... hate it when they try to squeeze into a train thats clearly maxed out its capacity... how are we suppose to respect the elderly when they behave like 2 yr olds~

and oh my gawd, i cant believe Heath Ledger's dead...
i mean... shit~

seriously...what the hell man -_-

im just feel soo beaten down by everything... i'm loosin control of my own reality, n its makin me feel weird.. insecure... and i DONT EVEN KNOW WHY... i tell myself "its just one of those days... u'll get over it, no worries :)"

3 days later, nothing changes... but ahh well, no worries...
its just one of those days.. tomoro would be better...





oh wait, didn't i say that yesterday? ~

be quiet~

*TUMP TUMP TUMP~
went the mother as she tumped loudly on the sister's room door early in the morning.
She shouts through the door something about the trains not working... n hurries the sister before she becomes late for work...

the sister replies something through the otherside of the door, its too muffled to be heard from my room... but the mother understood, and replied in kind with more frantic outcries of urgency~

i was having an unpleasent dream then, it wasn't so much a nightmare as it was... unpleasent, if tat makes any sense.... but a dream's a dream, & i was enjoying the fantasy... that is... till this incident began-_-

i thrashed about my bed, making noises with my feet, in hopes the mother would see my distress as an indication to keep ur voice down or stop banging on the damn door~ but no such assessment was made... and the noise continued...

the sister exits from her room & the conversation gets louder... i thrashed about even more.. but no one sees.. or they did, but no one cares~

"turn on the radio!" one of them says in ching...
"see what the news has to say about the distruption with the trains!"

and they did... to 93.3FM -_-
with that insidious S-Pop theme song being played between every infomercial... i thrashed and i thrashed, blanket hurled off the side of the bed... i buried my head beneath my pillow, shielding my ears tightly, but i could still hear it... it seeps through the cotton threads & the gaps of my fingers, pass the brain and into my soul~

i wailed and i howled, but my mouth is dry, n no sound could be heard~ i felt helpless... could no one hear my cries for sanctuary? if they could, did no one bothered to question my distress? i didnt know which was worst~

it was torture.... i screamed, i moaned, i howled~ then, as aburptly as it had begun, it stopped.... the front door slammed shut, locks were latched, footsteps shuffled away into the distance~

and it was quiet again...

but i was never the same, how could u be after all that.... my eyes stared blankly at the ceiling... tired as they were, they would not close~ sweat dripped from the side of my forehead... dazed, and still shaken from the ordeal, i did the only thing i could do...









i woke up....

pimp my crib~

i went to sloppy's house today to watch American gangster... met him at the bus stop i alighted at then bought 2 pizzas from Canadian n got chips from 7eleven... the feg wanted to spend $7.50 on a pack of "boiled" chips, but i pursaded him otherwise~

so then we walked to his house about half a mile away... i was so excited to see it, & when we got there, it was beautiful... i mean, shit, it was.. so beautiful~

a delicate koi pond greeted us at the entrance.... there was this lawn chair placed right infront of it... perfect for just laying there, reading a book or sippin a cup of coffee in the morning~

indoor pool, with a jacuzzi at the end mind u~ how cool is tat?

ok, so.. open the sliding glass doors n into the big ass living room.. with celings so high & space so wide... u could produce an echo from a pin drop~

a piano, he probably never touches, placed ever so complementary below the winding stairs.. it accomodates the ambience of the mellow household incredibly well~ doesnt really show it on the picture, but it does.. one of those "u-gotta-be-there-to-get-it" kinda thing~

his room, though lightly lit, actually feels warmer that way... most of the light comes from the window, but tats really all the light u need~

alright, so.. on to the cool things of the house...

Cool thing No.#1
its got 6 computers, laptops + desktops included~

Cool Thing No.#2
there's 3 plasma TVs all over the house.. hu need 3 TVs? let alone plasmas? fuckin rich ppl -_-



Cool Thing No.#3...
ladies are gonna like this... theres a room in his mom's room to keep all ur clothes in... u know, like in the movies.. where the have a room for their shoes... this is it... cept with clothes... yeah~

Cool Thing No.#4
the shower in his parents bedroom (yeah, theres like.. 20 bathrooms in the house... all of which are probably more fancier than urs) have this sup-ed up hydro gizmo future h2o squirt-o-matic shower massager spa thing-a-ma-jig that.. omg i cant even discribe.. just look at it n aww in its presence~


and finally.. the best for last~

Cool Thing No.#5 (and coolest thing in the house)
He's GOT A BIDET!!!!!

for those of u who dont know wad tat is, a Bidet is this really dandy crapper that the french invented that shoots a jet of water up ur butt n cleans ur ass with a push of a button~

n he never even knew about it -_- so here we are figurin out how to turn it on...

apparently its pressure sensitive, so we had to press the sit down to activate it lol... talk about Artificial inteligence in ur potty~ the things technology can do these days~


and to think...all this... all this wonderful n beautiful stuff... belongs to THIS TURD~


seriously, anyone wanna kidnap him?




anyone...?

07/01/08~

i've been feelin rather haggared these past few days. my eyes feel heavy and puffy, sometimes when i sit up too fast my head would pulse a beat & a minor pain would daze me for a couple of seconds before i manage to regain myself~

i was sick a couple of days back, kept thrownin up all over the place... it was painful~ i remembered passin out onto my bed from the fatigue of the affliction & havin the weirdest dreams during my unconciousness~ i cant remember them now of course.. but they kept me amused in my half-weary state...

i missed a really cool dinner on tat day because of this illness, but stewy made me some chicken and gave it to me at church last sunday... which was kinda gay, but really sweet in a "man" sort of way~

i feel almost completely healed now, cept for the headaches, which i think would pass if i had more rest... but i dont like taking naps, it gives my body too much access engery which i dont really need if i wanna keep my sleepin schedule in tact~

sometimes when i see someone on the street leanin on a pillar smokin a cigarette, i feel tempted~ i havent thought bout it for months, but a couple of days ago, there was this guy infront of me... & he was smokin, and he puffed the smoke out & i happend to inhale it... & it felt good~ and i missed tat feeling...

i realised ur mind n ur body are 2 seperate things... ur mind controls ur body, tats for sure... but u cant stop ur body from feeling wad it feels... im not as in control of my body's emotions as most ppl are... but im in control of my mind... n tats wad counts~

went to the market today to get groceries... i like doing that~ i'd be like, the youngest person there of course... pickin out vegetables with on my ipod on surrounded by all the old ppl around me doin their shoppin~ perks of shoppin for ur own groceries is tat u pick wad u wanna eat... i'd usually get lots of meat, and potato chips, and other stuff that i happen to fancy~

an episode of "Martha Stewart" had thought me how to cook this dish which required Scallions, which of course is this long-oniony-thing.... but when i got to the supermarket, all the veggies where labeled in their chinese term, like.. instead of saying "Chinese Cabbage" they'd call it "Xiao Bai Cai"~

so, unless u know how the thing actually looks like, u cant find it with just its name... which was super gay since vegetables all look the same~ but i guess it doesnt effect ppl much since they DO know how it looks like... but wadever right, just let me rant about it~

Facebook is a real bitch.. i dont get how to use it~ every day i get like 3 or 4 emails of ppl hu wanna "have sex" with me, its kinda weird but flattering at the same time.. and everytime i click it, n it takes me to the facebook site where'd just get lost in n close it like 2 mins later... -_-



someone's gotta teach me how to use facebook one day, then i can figure out how to throw houses at those ppl hu keep wanting to rape me~

butterfly~

i had an interesting time this past week... went to places i didn't think i'd go, met lots of new ppl... it was a cool experience, n i enjoyed myself~

new year's in like 2 days.. i haven't made any plans or resolutions, just gonna take it as it comes like i would every other year... and like every other year, this one's pretty much the same... nothin unique about it, nothin outstanding... come to think about it, this year's been pretty bad.. dropped outta sch, the whole stabbing thing...

i dont feel that the new year's goin to change anything.. never did feel the "magic" in the anticipation of a new year... cept in 2000 when the whole Y2K thing was goin on.. but when the clock struck midnight n the bombs didn't go off, it became just another normal year.... but wadever right~

i had 4 dinners this night... mom cooked the 1st, had maggi noodles an hr later, left over food from yesterday, then ordered mcdonalds 2 hrs later... i wanted to win that 10 grand from the ring & win thing... but who was i kiddin~

"I Am Legend" was a cool, haven't seen a good movie in a long time.... it was refreshing~ not the typical gunz ablazin' zombie horror flick, it was very emotionally drivin... so yeah, i liked it alot... maybe i'll go download some bob marley songs from the movie.... maybe not~



"I promised a friend I would say hello to you today..."










"hello..."

bitter grounds~

i didn't have a very good day the other day... got a msg from one of my colleges sayin the starhub job is cancelled... so i dont have a job no more, which definatly blows... everyone went down to the place to ask for explainations n compensations.. it was ugly~

all our plans were pretty much ruined... so much for that~ then i heard gynn got into a car accident and hurt her back, it wasn't tat serious but still~ met up for dinner at pizza hut, on the way there some deuchbag burnt my finger with his cigarette bud by accident, i already wasn't in a good mood then....

but dinner was cool, got a nice window seat to look out of.. and the conversation was nice... it's been awhile since i had a decent one~ She also introduced me to a job at Candy Empire~ lots of sweet girls hang out at candy shops, so tat'll be cool~


i dropped my ear stud down the sink when i took it out at home... as if my luck wasn't already bad.... it was like a final "F you" from 'the man' before he left me alone-_-


wadever~

20/12/2007~

my mom, pounced onto my bed this morning to wake me up... she said something i couldnt really make out since i was still driftin in n out of it, but the only thing i remembered from it was tat it was loud... my mom's has those kinda loud-sounding voices that even if she whipsered, u could still hear it... n u know how sensitive ur eyes and ears are to light n sound in the morning, not cool -_-

she'd be all, "get up aaron... *something something~"
then i'd just cover my head with the sheets n tell her i dont wanna go to sch -_-~

after awhile, she gave up n went to do the same thing at my sister's room... i could hear them talking n moving around.. it was noisy n it made me feel really unnerving... & just like that, my morning was ruined~

i hate being woken up unaturally.... well, not really 'unnaturally' more like unexpectedly... like if i had to get up at 6am the next morning, i'd set my alarm, n i'd wake up... i'll be tired, but i knew i had to wake up.. so in tat sense, im not disturbed.. and i luv starting the day that way~

but today i woke up to the sounds of the mother n sister's chatter n gossip as they watched their korean shows in the living room.... & with the volume so loud, i could hear every word spoken by the actors... every flamboyant tone used to express that incomprehensible tongue of theirs... the ching-ness was seeping into my room n crawling up the pillars of my bed, poking n proding at my tolerence to it... n tat was it, got up... n scowled at them on the way to the bathroom~

they didnt seem to care...
n neither did i once i made it to the bathroom~

it was cold... n it was awesome..... i luv morning rains, so much so tat i'd wake up to experience it rather then sleep thru its comfort~ which was why i was glad i was awake....

spent most of the afternoon readin my comics n savin the world~(of warcraft)... theres alotta movies i wanna watch... old one and new....

-Batman the Dark knight
-I am Legend
-American Gangster

and all those foreign films i always wanted to watch but cant find.... the internet's an amazing tool :)

dinner the night b4 was fish n potatos~
i underestimated the amount of mashed potatos, 3 potatos could make.. that portion's probably onli 1/2 of a potato~
which remains me, i gotta get a potato masher gizmo thingy~


nice lil lemon to top it off with too~
n i ate it at 9pm when everyone was still at work n i lit candles n shit while watchin an episode of Grey's anatomy i taped the night b4~

i love having the whole house to myself.. unfortunate today everyone's home.... apparently its a public holiday today... still dont know which one though~

you put the lime in the coke n u drink it all together....
i put the lemon in the coke n it just tastes sour -_-

the cave~

spagetti n meat balls... again, it tastes great, cause i made it.. and everyone knows, anything u make by yrself will always look n taste good... & it actually doesnt look tat bad compared to the grey chicken from the other day... plus those meatballs are handmade too... not some canned one... wait, do meatballs even come in cans?


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cleared my room the other day... took off everything from the shelves n drawers... even unplugged sephira~ and the fan too to give'em a wipe... sweeped n mopped.. dusted n cleaned everything... changed the sheets, made the bed... tossed out all the crap i didnt want n re-organized all the crap i did~

took like 3 hrs but it felt accomplishing... my room was clean :)

should've taken a 'before' picture, but i dont think u'd wanna see that...

And check out all the comics i got, i forgot how many i actually owned... this is like 3 drawers n a "portable-cabinet-from-under-the-bed" full of'em~


i was super proud of my collection back in the day,when ppl would ask...
"so wad's ur hobbby aaron?"
then i'd tell'em...
"i collect comics~"
"oh, u mean manga?"
"last time i checked, Batman was from Gotham, not Tokyo -_-"

n i had a kick ass collection of comics.. from the popular X-men & Spider-man to Ninja Turtles & Archie... then there were just weird ones~

n here are a couple of the First Issues..
1st issue of AquaMan, 1st issue of X-Force, 1st X-FActor, 1st Ultimate X-men, 1st issue of Archie & Friends paperback edition~


i bet it'll be worth alotta money if i sell everything... n i think i should since i read them all n i dont really have much space to keep'em in~ but then again, i dunno if i'd have the heart to sell them... or if ppl still wanna buy stuff like this... hu cares about the x-men when u got an x-box 360~

anyway, my room is super clean now, im not letting anyone step into it n touch my stuff~ not even family or friends... untill it gets dirty again, then yeah, mi kasa su kasa~

then u can go roll around on my bed or wadever, i wouldn't care~

so yeah.. too cool for sch so im stayin home~

nothing, like something, happens everywhere~

there was a documentary last night on arts central about the Davinci Code, and it got me all thinkin about god, and religion~ so i went n googled the whole conspiracy theory thing to decide for myself whether or not any of this was real...

there was pages upon pages of historical fact and speculations... words like the "Priory of Sion" & "Opus Dei" popped up alot... analytic references on how Mary Magdalne was the real 'Holy Grail', not to mention all critizim on whether or not there was some eliged secret msg in his painting of 'The Last Supper'~

i skimmed thru all of tat, & more... but i didnt understand anything~ i guess since im not really a religious person, i dont have much background knowledge to compare anything to~ but it was still pretty interesting... so i went n googled other stuff about Anthropology...

and, as i went on, going from page to page, clickin on link upon link... i noticed that a majority of all the content was mainly theoretical~ it was just, speculation upon speculation... & afterall, there was no REAL right or wrong ans, it was just made up of ppl's different opinions and idealogies of different situations, depending on wadever the subject at hand was~

like the Law for example, it wasn't just one guy that made up all the rules... it was a grp of ppl.. a majority, that sat down n decided wad was right n wad was wrong... and it keeps adjusting as the times change, as currency and culture alters~

but tat doesnt make it flawless, it changes, but it doesnt improve... at least not drastically~ i would say that the study of humanities rely mostly on culture to determine its next move... wad would be considered acceptable then, might not be said the same now... whether or not wad music is 'cool', or wad is considered as Art was probably percived in a different way in, in a different civilization of a different time~

and it wasn't just about our diversities, there was more too it... something bigger... there was space and the stars, Genetics and behavior~ Collaborating with cultural significance, the natural & social science of humans have purpose & intent to unlocking wad we as human beings really are..

Is it wad u do that defies us as individuals? most of us would like to believe that... but wad if it's not? wad if destiny was conceivable? wad if fate was in play? would we even be able to comprehend such an allegation?

hu's to say its not, n if so, hu's to deprive us of knowing it? Who's to say that we dont have the right to know the meaning behind our existance... wad if aliens really existed? if u knew the answer, would u tell everyone? afterall, ppl have the right to know... hu's to say anything about anyone?

this reminded me of a conversation i had with vic, about why Wars were started... which then lead to a deliberation on President Bush's administration and ended with an indept disscusion on Hitler's life as a child~

anyway, the point being, had different choices been made, had President Bush chose Not to retaliate agains the 911 attack, would Americans still be protesting FOR the war instead? i mean, i'd be pissed if the goverment doesnt do anything when my country's attacked.... or would they be content with the decision of peace? had 911 not even occur, would there still be terrorism? if Hitler didnt start WWII, would the world be a better place? or would some other conflict just take its place?

is it really fate that lead to these events? is it destiny? were these event inevitable? or were they all simply just moments of bad decisions making?

which ever side u choose to believe in, there'll always be a moment where we'd decided that, 'hey... maybe there is some unknown force tellin me wad to do'.. but then again, maybe there isn't~

knowing all this just makes u see how trival the problems in our lifes are... if u got a "D-" for ur math quiz, if the person u like doesnt like u back...

so wad... is that something to cry over? perhaps... is it something to die over?.. hardly~ compared to the world n its mysteries, our personal problems are insignificant because we dont realise wad goes on outside of our lil lives.. how could we?~

n its ok tat we cant... maybe we're not suppose to~ we already have such a hard time dealing with our own problems, let alone everyone else's... so, if the girl i like doesnt like me back, so wad... sure i'd feel sad n disappoint n wad not... but knowing how big the world is makes it seem manageable...

then the problem doesnt seem so big anymore...

which is just fine~

dinner~

INGREDIENTS
1/2 cup cornstarch
1/4 cup water
1 1/2 teaspoons minced garlic
1 1/2 teaspoons minced fresh ginger root (didn't have ginger...)
3/4 cup white sugar
1/4 cup soy sauce
1/4 cup white wine vinegar
1/2 cup hot chicken broth
1 teaspoon MSG
3 pounds skinless, boneless chicken breast halves, cut into bite size pieces
1/2 cup soy sauce
1 teaspoon ground white pepper
1 egg
1 cup vegetable oil
2 cups chopped green onions (didn't know onions were green...)
16 chilli peppers, sun-dried (didn't have those either...)

DIRECTIONS
1.
To Make Sauce: In a large bowl combine 1/2 cup cornstarch and 1/4 cup water. Mix together. Add garlic, ginger, sugar, 1/4 cup soy sauce and white wine vinegar. Then add chicken broth and monosodium glutamate and stir all together until sugar dissolves. Refrigerate until needed.

2.
To Prepare Chicken: In a separate bowl, combine chicken, 1/2 cup soy sauce and white pepper. Stir in egg. Add 1 cup cornstarch and stir until chicken is evenly coated. Add oil to help separate chicken pieces. Divide chicken into small quantities and deep fry at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) until crispy. Drain on paper towels.

3.
To Make Mixture: Place a small amount of oil in wok and heat until wok is hot. Add scallions and dried chile peppers and stir-fry briefly. Remove sauce from refrigerator and stir. Add sauce to wok. Then add fried chicken and cook until sauce thickens (add cornstarch or water as needed until sauce is as thick as you like it).

got this recipe from allrecipes.com~
its suppose to look like this....

but it turned out like this...


tastes great though, cause i made it... so yeah~

good to be a bachelor, cept i gotta pretend no one's around me to fully enjoy the whole "living on my own" thing~


wadever...

fragile things~

wow, i totally love the weather in demember... the rain blocks out most of the sunlight in the morning so it doesnt glare much into my window.. makes the day feel like evening... which is really cool~

the sister came back... mom went to get her at the airport this morning at like 6am. but all she brought back was some candy bars... kinda lame since u went all the way to America n all u got was candy, but it was special candy.. from america.. wooooo~

i especially like the milk duds~ n the candy box with my name on it...

plus there was this... so guess it wasnt tat bad :)

she sleepin on my bed behind me now.. which is weird cause i dont like her touchin my stuff... but wadever~ cause im nice n all...

wadever~

my neighbour's daughter is kinda cute lookin... i dont really see her much cause i usually dont care~ but i passed her in the corridor the other night, n she gave me a lil smile.. it was the clearest i've seen her face n she looked pretty sweet~

imma go say hello next time if we bump into each other again... wonder how she sounds like in person~

monday's probably gonna be the last free day im gonna get till march... but everyone's in sch or at attachment, so i guess i'll just bumm at home~ but its cool... weather's nice~

imma stop here, headin out in abit...
so yeah~ happy sunday

flash backs n premenitions~

had dinner with Gynn at blk 85 a couple of nights ago.. it was cool, i missed the bcm~ then the next day we went shoppin... and she paid for everything so yayy~ lunch was cool even though we left like so many garlic bread uneaten... tcc was cool too.. i was gonna take u to the four seasons for dinner next time but u kept punching me n pinched my arm... so im not going to anymore!

tell the coin bomohs to curse me why dont u -_-~

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the sister called this morning from Las Vegas when i was still alseep, said it was scary over there n her hotel was haunted... that she was sick of burgers for breakfast n there was no chilli sauce there-_-

Nirvada is a scary place, we've all seen CSI havent we... the crimerate is high... i mean, alot of things can go wrong if u put a whole bunch of casinos in one place... just be careful, dont be an easy target.. walk tall and have one hand in ur coat pocket to act like ur packin heat n everything will be cool~

as for the ghostly hotel, how many times have we heard stories of ppl going oversea n staying in a haunted hotel, while when we stay in a local hotel, nothin happens... its just our insecurities of being in a foreign land thats playin tricks on our minds... its just like moving into a new house, the anxiety of being in an unfamilar place can lead to paranoia... its just ur sub-concious mind thinkin that theres someone watchin u from the window when in reality we're just scared to be alone~

so dearest sister, read a book, listen to music, just be cool... there are no ghosts in america, onli angels.... stop worrying urself by watchin the news all the time n scarying urself... bad shit happens, but life goes on~ keep the bible by the bed side n go get some mace tomoro or something... then buy me a cool t-shirt and booze when u get to the airport~

open ur mind n just enjoy the last few days there, cause once u get back home dim sum n kuey kuey is all ur gonna eat... spend all ur money, go shopping, go see a movie, go to a bar... just spend all ur money n have a good time~ america's the land of the free n ur can do wadever u want...

vandalise something, leave ur mark... in the hotel, on a park bench... take photos of random things... of random ppl... oh, n get me a stack of the their local press.. i wanna see how their paper looks like.... talk to strangers, they wont find it weird.. ask if u have a Qs, or if ur just bored~

oh, n write a jorunal... that always helps....
thats about all the advice i can give... email me if u cant get thru on the phone~

as told by the brother~
(i luv u cause i have to... but sometimes cause i want to~)

for the kids~

mom asked me wad i wanted to eat for breakfast this morning... so i told her i wanted "a patty... a crabby patty..." then i just laughed my ass off while she continued watchin tv~

lol

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anyway, saturday was pretty interesting~
vic's dad was part of this Charity organization n they'd planned this thing to bring a bunch of sick kids to watch "Scrooge the musical" down at the Singapore Repotory Theatre~ so i just went to help... thats right, me... doing charity.... didnt think i would bother about doing shit like this now did u... but im capable of performing good deeds, so there~


didnt really do much... all we had to do was usher the kids into the theatre.... they came by the bus loads, one after the other.... i'd figured the kids would all be like... bald and pale-lookin from all the chemo, commin out in wheelchairs with tubes in their arms n shit... but it was nothin like that...

they were all, jumpy and runnnin around all over the place with their power ranger backpacks... they seemed happy enough considering they were suppose to be sick~ even though they were holdin hands with their partners and lined up in a row, they were still jumpin around and wavin their hands about... one of them shot me with his finger, another bowed to me and said "thank u very much" like i was a prince or something.. they were just being kids, & it was really cute to watch~



once tat was done, me n vic didnt really wanna stay to watch the show, so we went to PS for dinner, then walked back... there were alot of ppl in PS... there was a live battle of the bands thing goin on outside, then a 'Winx Club' show goin on on the inside... so all the lil kids n parents were inside while the emo ppl flocked the outside~ point being, there were lots of ppl at PS....

there were lots of stuff to see in the theatre... lots of paintings n shit... and there was a alfresco bar at the back so tat was cool~




so when the show was over and all the kids came out, we had to give each of'em a goodie bag...


kids are like lil monsters... they grab shit n run around alot.. the non-sick kids were the meanest actually... friggin grabbed everything from my hand... it was the actual sick kids tat were nice and polite, saying thank you and smiling alot... especially this one girl hu had down syndrome hu didnt really say thank you out loud, she just mouthed it to me...

now, i wasnt really expecting anything when i came here, i figured "yeah, i got some time to kill... sure, lets go help some sick kids.. there might be some chickas there too.." but that girl made me feel really good about myself... i kinda understand the whole jizz of helping the needy... it felt good :)

annnyway... one by one the kiddies all left... n it was just us helpers, a couple of adults, and us young ppl~ one of the girls went up to me n said something to me in ching, i didnt really know wth she just said... plus she had her cellphone to her ear so i didnt know if she was talkin to me or not~ but she was lookin at me when she said it... then her friend said something in ching too, & from wad i managed to decifer, she said something like " i had alot of question marks on my head "

apparently cellphone girl was askin for something in one of my goodie bags... n when i just stared at her cluelessly, cellphone girl's friend laughed n said the "he looks like he's got alot of question marks on his head" thing~

so yeah, it was just a simple enough situation that happened in less than a min... but it stuck with me cause, i felt weird not being able to relate to them... n everyone speaks like that in this country... sure i can speak english very well... but sometimes its just cool to fit in~

i find it hard to relate with most ppl cause their so different in terms of language n culture~ theres onli a hand full of ppl that i can be on the same lvl with when it comes to conversation~

so we hitched a ride on one of vic's dad's friends's van... which had a couch at the back of it, which was pretty awesome... it was the 1st time i sat in a sofa in a moving vehicle, felt like a video game...

so yeah, thats it...
dont know how to end it, so im just gonna stop~



*stops

December in chair~

i love my mornings~
i love waking up in the December weather to an empty house...
Everyone's never home in the mornings... n i love it~

i love the privacy, the quietness... i love how no one's in the kitchen cookin or in the living room watchin tv... i love the stillness~

its serene and motionless... i like how i get 1st dibs on everything n not having to share it with anyone else... (food, hotwater in the bathroom, etc) but its not really wad i can DO but more of how i feel when im all alone in an empty house~

n i feel calm, safe... & it gives me hope for some reason... that today will be a good day, and if it didnt turn out tat well, there's always the next quiet morning i can wake up too....

and its nice knowing that~

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this whole week's been a whole 'runnin around' session to get my affairs in order n still balance work at the same time.... my 2nd job starts on the 4th of Dec, i gotta report to some place in Cuppage Road... where the hell is tat?

im so busy now.. its crazy... a couple of weeks ago i was just bummin around at home playin video games n watchin tv... now im going to like 2 places in one day...

im tired... and sometimes i miss school... the friends, the classes.... fooling around without a care in the world~ workin life really blows, but i feel alot more grown up.. i feel like, the choices i make now hold greater effect then the ones that did before... and because of that, the wrong choices bear larger consiquences~

oh, and another thing...
accents are such turn ons~ i say that, all the time... and its true : ) i was havin a pretty bad day at work last night, till this girl introduced herself to me.. and she had the sweetest voice i've heard in a long time... i could'nt really tell if she had an accent, but the tone of her voice made me feel really tingly inside : )

hearing her speak made me wanna talk to her even more... i asked more questions just to get to hear her voice... she had a really nice name too.. it was unique, and that just added to her feminineness~

but it was short-lived, i was busy and she had her affairs to attend to... perhaps in another place, at another time i might have gotten her no. or something... nonetheless, meeting her really made my day... n after that i got a piece of a bday cake from one of the customers cause i did a good job attending to them~

so yeah.... women are truly astonishing creatures~
especially the sweet sounding articulate ones : )

really cool~

i say the word "cool" alot... i use it to describe almost every positive thing i experience~ i usually subsitute it with words like "nice" and "okay".... the word "cool" is my own imperative verb that i use to express almost every aspect of a situation that i happen to encounter~

so yeah, thats pretty cool : )

i havent blogged in a long time, & i wouldnt say that much has happend.... but its been a cool week~ i went to changi with remi for dinner about a week ago, and i found out that changi is actually pretty fucked up with all its haunted old japanese schools n abandoned WWII training camps... not to mention all the hotspots that the trannies go to... we drove around, n he showed me this grave thing on the top of a spooky flight of stairs in the middle of this jungle area... he called it the "stairway to hell" it was creepy.. n we took lots of photos but he still hasnt sent them to me -_- so, cant really show them to u...

the sister flew off to Las Vegas this afternoon to some seminar there.... im totally jealous of her.... and its like 10 degrees down there so she got herself a coat n stole my beanie~ and DAMN i love wearing coats....

i dont really love coats, i just love the Idea of wearing one and walkin around in the cold with ur hands in those warm pockets and having flakes of snow get caught on the fur while ur walkin thru the chilling streets.... i love the idea of putting one on when u leave a building n hanging it up when u enter one... i love coat hangers too~ and its like the 1st thing i'd buy for my future home in The Hamptons in 10 or 20 years from now~

and its her birthday today too... -_- wad better present can u get then a free trip to LV on ur bday~ i told her to take acouple of photos with Elvis and buy a "I went to Las Vegas & all i got was this lousy T-shirt" t-shirt when she gets back...

mom's thinkin of quittin her job cause i dont think she's havin a good time there, so i gonna try n take up 2 jobs now tat i got so much free time n all.. and i do have, oh so much free time -_-~

lets see.. wad else is there....

i used to listen to alot of modern rock stuff from the chill peppers & Foo fighters, then i went to modern contemporary like Keane and James Morrison... after that i was more into Indie and listened to alot of The Killers & The Bravery.. but now im back to contemporary again... with alot of Amos lee and a hint of rock from Sterophonics and Lifehouse...

and, with all this talk about music, i've realised tat i havent touch my guitar in mths & i've forgotten how to play almost everything -_-
but wadever....

im watchin this thing on tv now... some concert on S-pop on channel U. Dont even ask me why im watching it... i just happend to chance upon it and was gonna immediatly change the channel.... but on hearing all the fuss about the whole s-pop shit, i decided to keep an open mind n see wad its about~

its really weird actually... everything about it was soo "chingy" it kinda creeped me out a lil... the elaborate, yet typical, poofy outfits that they wore, the heavy make-up and overly defined eyeshadow... and then there were all these screaming fans with the same mullet hair style that every ching chong chang girl had in this country waving their big ass posters about n screaming at every single development in the show, significant or not~

it was like this...
pop star comes on (*fans scream)
pop star waves at them (*fans scream)
pop star puts hand on mic (*fans scream)
pop star begins intro to song (*fans scream)
pop star sings song (*fans scream)
pop star sings chorus (*fans scream)
pop star ends song (*fans scream)
pop star leaves stage (*fans scream)
pop star turns around n flips everyone off (*fans scream)
pop star pulls out semi-automatic n starts blastin everybody (*fans scream)

-_-

and then there was tat guy they call JJ, hu's wears the same gawd damn outfit every freakin time i see him on tv... its always that same sleeveless shirt with that same sleeveless white jacket that he wears n goes singing that same god damn song over n over again like a broken record...

if i knew the title, i'd link the youtube vid here, but i dont... but im sure most of u ching-ies would know... its that obsessivly catchy tune tats plays in every super star, super band, super campus or wadever super fucking idol thing, theres like 20 versions of it... n they play the same GAWD DAMN SONG OVER N OVER ALL THE TIME!!!

STOP IT!
NO ONE LIKES HIM!!
PICK A NEW FRIGGIN SONG ALREADY!!!~

and thats when i turned off the tv n everything went back to normal...

im sorry... i tried watchin it... i tried to understand the whole concept of ching tv, but i cant.. i really dont enjoy K-dramas or those lame taiwan gameshows.... but hey, if u ppl like it, then yeah, go ahead n watch it... i dont care, just dont make me sit thru one of those again -_-~


so yeah~
how u like THEM apples----

bliss~

the weathers' been really cool these few days... rain in the mornings and showers at night... its great isnt it? i know i love it~

u know wad else i love?
coffee in the mornings n milo at night~
yeah, n i make'em with 20 spoon fulls of sugar n sweet sweet luuvvv~

things are cool, and i feel good about wad's to come...
the future looks promising, so yeah~

music on a monday morning when the cloud block out the sun and u can still smell rain thru the gaps in ur window is just the perfect way to start the day off : )

that weird gatsby advertisment is back on again, its so gay n i dont even know wth its gotta do with the hair gel thing-_-

but wadever... things are cool~






"black hawk down, we got a black hawk down....~"

call to arms~

i have no idea why i keep wakin up in the early hours of the day, when i slept at 1am the night before.... i am exhausted, mentally... and really cranky... i think it might be due to the cigs~ i bought a pack like a couple of days ago in a moment of folly and i think its giving me this un-needed extra energy... well its not really 'energy' at all, more like, isomia inducing medication~

its makin me feel really unrested... and since i havent smoked in like.. mths, i guess the long break has nulled my resistance against tabacco~ needless to say, i dont feel the urge to smoke anymore, nor, if i did, would indefinatly reframe from succoming to it~

smoking doesnt seem cool anymore after awhile, just makes u feel sick n smell like a jet engine~ so yeah, im not going to do it anymore... maybe the occasional stick now n then, but i dont think i'll be purchasing any on my own... period~

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spent the entire morning playin 'World of Warcraft'~
woke up at 7.45am, & theres not really much to watch on tv... plus, it was great timing too cause my friend came online at that time, so we got on our mics n startin talkin crap...
yeah, that my character...


anyway, we managed to get into a great group n we all went exploring n shit.. the group was made up of Mokand( aka. Jeff ), Illucent ( aka. Robert), and Rageth ( aka. Robert's son hu's name i dont know cause he didnt talk much ) and then there was me (aka Vanden)~

i wish i could've recorded our conversations, it was hilarious... we did all sorts of stuff besides questing like goin into the Al Quhira 40-man Raid instance ( its just a really big n scary place with big monsters FYI to those hu dont play )


we killed some giant snakes...


took down a really big anubis elite...


we died plenty of times of course.. but eventually we took him down~



and a lil group photo right there~


by this time it was around 3pm and we had almost played for 7 hours straight.... n it was like 1am east coast time over at america so they needed to sleep n i needed to eat and rob's son needed to go to sch tommoro... so we went our seperate ways~

i had reached lvl 58 so i could go through the portal to 'Outlands' (an even scarier place with even more bigger monsters) so i flew to 'blasted lands' where the portal was...


rode on over... u can already see it from a distance, its pretty huge~


see wad i mean...



so i went thru it, n there was this huge battle goin on inside.. took another photo like any curious onlooker hu stumbled onto an epic battle would...


then i flew to this place called "Thrallmar" which is were u'd 1st go to went thru the portal... see that town at the top left there? yeah tats the one...


it isnt exactly the safest place to be for beginners, since theres this big ass monster called a "Fel Reaver" that wanders around right outside the encampment... i managed to take a pic of his back before he stepped on me -_-


so.. yeah.. basically that was my day and my 1st time in the "Hellfire Pennisular"~
probably meeting jeff tomoro morning... he's from Atlanta, Gerogia... so my 8am is his 10pm...

going back to sch tommoro to meet jenny for lunch, minty for dinner & gynn for supper... so at least i still keep in touch with reality~




i'm such a nerd -_-~
bahhh~

12/11/07~

annnnnd, i lost my stud today again -_-


sonofabitch~

closing time~

mom made ham n' cheese sandwiches for breakfast, i feel loved~
scent whoring with gynn the other day was cool, riddin shotgun with remi was cool too~

im happy now cause i got something to twirl around in my mouth... think thats where i get my inspiration to write from... does that even make sense? some ppl subconciously perform subtle movements with their bodies that their unaware of during intense concentration or maybe during situations that require a certain amount of focus~

be it drumming ur fingers or chewin on ur hair.. maybe its because u unknowingly do these actions that ur mind familiarizes itself as a kinda prerequisite before ur brain is able to begin thinking~

i twirl my lip stud around alot when im bored... or when i think.. i noticed that about myself alot... so, if one day, u couldnt perform these little actions that ur body's so used to doing before hand.... u find urself stumped cause u cant focus properly.... interesting huh?

well now that i DO have a twirly thinking thing to activate my brain, i guess i'll be inspired to blog more... and... think.. about stuff, not that i dont already.. think about stuff in the first place...

so yeah~

another thing i found out about myself is tat i cant live without music... i left my ipod at home the other day... n i think i died on the bus ride~

not cool -_-





*i move alot when i listen to music & i see u starin... but i keep on doing it anyway to weird u out~

take THAT ppl from the bus!

04/11/07~

i lost the my entire lip studd so now i got nothin to twirl around in my mouth n it feels weird~

hair is super short... badass-ness dropped by 50%.... on the other hand, cute lil school boy appeal increases by 70%, dont know if its a good thing, but wadever~

section 377A of the penal code says u cant have gay sex in public or in the privacy of ur own homes even if its consentual or face imprisonment for a term which may extend to 2 years~

wat gives?

i hardly think gay sex, let alone any sex thats consentual for that matter, to be the goverment's business~ dont u have better things to do then hold forums debating whether or not to let the homos get it on~

ppl are dying n shit, n u wanna discuss whether sodomy is legal?
well fuck u then..

homosexuality isnt really a choice, its genetic... gay ppl cant help being gay, its in their genes, so its not like they can help it that their not straight.. what 2 ppl do btw themselves, be it within the legal limits of the law, is their own progative n NONE OF THE GOVERMENT'S BUSINESS -_-

leave them alone jesus christ~

its such a stupid law n i cant believe its been made such a big deal-_-
n im not gay or anything.. everyone thinks if u give ur consent to the matter, ur a fag..

Come onnnn -_- are u pricks tat childish n narrow-minded?
"heyyy dont donate to the SPCA, cause if u do, tat means u like animals n u wanna have sex with them"

im not gay, i like girLs.. n girLs like me~

ducky loves bunny..
well more like the other way... isnt it?




pfft~