i want it~

look at tat...
its the new ipod phone...
it looks so cool~


look how sweet it looks... so cool and i want one but i have no money... but i want one..

watch the video at the bottom... its so cool... i think im gonna go steal one tomoro~

http://www.apple.com/iphone/

so cooOoooL~

i said cool like.. so many times.. cause it is...

*dies again~

aussie love~

it all started last sunday... which was the last day of the holidays, n i was stoning in my room just thinkin about stuff. I wondered wad i wanted to do with the rest of my future n shit so i decided that.. yeah.. i'm gonna leave sg

*and im never comin back~

sg is a horrible place to grow up in, i've always felt tat way about it... i never liked the food (mostly ching-chong-chang food), never enjoyed its local past times (dota, soccer, pool~), never supported its tv shows, never liked the people, the goverment, its laws, its rules, its education system, its... entire way of life~

i must say tat sg is safe.. and tats about it.... but being safe means theres no excitment... the point of my post isnt souly to diss singapore, but just to say how i simply dont feel like i belong....

which is why i decided tat im running away to austraila and im never coming back~ i told my mom about it over dinner. At 1st she didnt take me seriously since i started the conversation with " Mom, i wanna go to austraila... and im never coming back...."

but then i started to explain to her my plans of migrating n shit... how i could stay with my aunt over there, maybe get a job & eventually become a citizen. I could work as, well anything really.. i dont care.. just as long as it sustains me.... i wouldnt mine workin as a simple fruit vendor or at a deli sellin fish n' chips & Pies to ppl all day... tat would still be cool since aussies are so much more friendlier than the ppl here...

i've always wanted to live a simple life... i could save up enough money n buy my mom a quiet cottage in the valley next to the vinyards and grapevines~ then every morning she could sit out by the balcony sipping wine or drinkin tea to the fine view of the orchirds~

my mom told me i should start saving money.... so i could fly to perth (or was it sydney) during the sch holidays to where my aunt n her family lived n check out the place... make plans for housing n all tat sort of thing~ then after i graduate and served the riddiculus procedure tat is National Service, i'd make my way to perth ( or sydney)..

*and im never comin back~

i wont miss anything here once im gone.... just my friends n family...
i wont miss the urban jungle of HTBs, wont miss the filty sea, wont miss the horrendous local dramas, wont miss the ridiculous GST rates, and most of all, i wont miss those unhelpful, unfriendly, self-centered, kiasu, typical, as well as oh so predictable ppl tat are singaporeans~

no more taiwan boyband posers, no more fake hip hoppers, no more minahs or mats, ah bengs or ah lians, no more creepy uncles at the coffee shops or mean old aunties at the markets... no more sobish rich basterds, no more conservative teenage girls, no more narrow-minded adults... AND NO MORE CAMPUS SUPERSTAR!!!

so please dont ask me out to the amusement park or wadever where i gotta spend alot of cash... im gonna have to start saving if im ever gonna leave this shit hole.... still gonna continue eatting bcm cause of the heroin, guess i could stop playing W.O.W but i hate those damn alliance too much so i cant do tat... but u know.. other stuff like.. playing "DOTA" or "EATING SUBWAY" ( which SUCKS-_- so screw all of u hu sub it for bcm~ ) u can count me out~

my bday's in a mth... please send me lots of ang paos...
im gonna leave...




*and im never comin back~

day before school~

its like a ritual... everytime on the last day of the holidays before school re-opens, i'd always restock my playlist with a whole bunch of new songs~

Five For Fighting - Day By Day~

its really theraputic....
calms u down and sort of prepares u for tomorrow~

with all the last min rushing goin on to get ready for sch, its nice to relax to some good music at the end of the day....

Three Days Grace - Never Too Late~

i dunno if i should cut my hair or leave it as it is... its really long and its gettin emo-lookin~ Its hard to keep long hair, but then again.. if i cut it i'd loose my bad-ass-ness by like 70% then i wont be scary lookin anymore....

Maroon 5 - Nothing Lasts Forever~

havent done much of my projects during the holiday cause of the eye~ n all... but i guess i'll deal with all that tomoro... im just gonna chill today... no worrys... its all good~

Green Day - Working Class Hero~

i feel like get my tongue pierced....
and i want a kitty -_-

blehhh...

urghhh~

woke up at noon today... been a long time since i woke up pass 10am~ went to have lunch with maddy, then chilled at starbucks.... its been a long time since we hung out, so it was pretty cool~

Tampines has changed alot... or maybe it's just cause i havent been going out much... but that'll change since my w.o.w subscription ended last night... gotta start gettin out more...

went to vic's place to chill then had dinner... im gonna go back to playin my guitar since there's no more w.o.w to play... its been a while & i really miss playin it, so yeahh~

this is a very boring post...
but im bored...
cause i have no w.o.w~


urghh....
*dies~

w.o.w~

hi...
this is Vanden....
he's a lvl 42 undead rouge~


say hi Vanden...
oh he cant.. he has no mouth -_-


boo hoo...


this is Jimmy his pet Coackroach..


say hi Jimmy... oh.. he cant.. cause he's an insect & we all know insects are deaf so he cant hear me...

this is charlie...


he's a skeleton horse~
say hi charlie...


charlie says hi...

this is wad i ride to go to disney land..


& this is wad i take to go back~


Here's is a picture of a dancing cow...


& here's one of a pedophile~


ok.. tat's it....

bye~

.... like a bat~

i've been doing nothing but laze around the house this whole week... bought my mic 2 days ago so i've been skype-ing with jared & victor during game-play which is pretty cool but we just talk nonsense all day~

the eye has totally blown all my plans~ but it feels much better now... this morning i was bleedin from and there was lots of gooey stuff coming out of it but now its fine... i guess its because all the bad stuff exploded out so the poofy-ness has gone down... yeeeahhh, kinda gross but had to happen~

but, here's the thing though...
the other eye feel kinda funky now -_-

*points both middle fingers to the sky~

the eye II~

the mother called n forced me to see a doctor yesterday, so i had to go.... went to the polyclinic at around 3.45pm then waited for maybe 45min before i got to see the doc...

i took of my glasses n he was like, "woa, that looks pretty bad son, im afraid ur gonna loose ur vision forever... aww well, sucks to be u... NEXT!"

yeah i was just makin tat up... it went like this...

poly clinic doc: "woa, that looks pretty bad, i think its best i refer u to an eye specialist at changi hospital"

Me: "err... wokay~"

so, seeing as i got nothin better to do, i made my way to CGH, the A&E department... i found out wad A&E stood for wen i got there.. "ACCIDENT & EMERGENCY"

wooooooooooooooooo~
how cool was tat, i was like... up there with all the burnt victims and car crash folks... hoho~

there was a temperature taking booth at the entrance of the place & this really niffty infra-red camera thingy tat checks if u got a fever... u could like, see urself on the screen all infra-red like~ i kept waving my hand in front of the monitor like a moron to see the lil heat waves follow my arm... so amusing~

so like, i entered the place... n my god, it was like a warzone... there were ppl all sick n shit lying on the floor... motorcycle accident victims with their faces chaved, construction workers with their fingers chopped off! kids who fell off trees and dislocated their heads! stab wound victims bleedin all over the place... blood was EVERYWHERE! CHRIST! OH THE HUMANITY OF IT ALL!

....
.......

yeah, it was just like any other clinic just more cooler since there were alot of gross shit to look at, plus there were lots of cops around.. guess they were there to write reports of all the accidents n stuff... anyway, i kept laughing to myself everytime i saw some guy with a huge gash on his arm... couldnt help smiling lah it was tat cool...

anyway after lots of waiting and going from on doc to another and more waiting... saw more gross shit like dislocated fingers n a guy with full body tatts in wheel chairs... i think he came from a gang fight or he probably just feel down the stairs or something.... the mother came down about half way into the waiting which was cool...

anyway, after like 2 hrs they called my name & i went to meet the eye docter lady, she seemed pretty nice, made me take a lil eye test those ppl at the spectacles shop make u take... just read acouple of letters on a lighted board with one eye closed....

then came the gross part... she placed me on some advance kinda machine tat, again, those guys at the spectacle shop put u on to get ur eye degree except this one was full of prode n pokey lookin shit... lets just say she used every one of them -_- she like, flipped my eyelids inside out n poked it alot.. i swear i would've attacked her for it if she werent so nice to me.... it was like putting ur finger in a bullet wound & swirling it around~ she even put this yellow stuff in my eye tat made me cry yellow tears tat would glow purple in UV light~

anyway, after all the poking n proding, she said...
Eye doctor lady: " ok... so.. err... i think ur gonna die... yeeeeah... bummer huh~"
Me: " dammmn -_- i knew it~"

yeah im just makin shit up again~

anyway, after the whole torturous event, i pretty much kept my eyes closed for the rest of the waiting n stuff... just leaned on my mom the whole time... acted like some dude tat got too much morphine in his system... kept grabbing my head n lookin like some druggy lol~

anyway the whole thing cost like 75 bucks, including some eye cream thingy.... they gave me 4 days mc which is kinda stupid since its the holidays... and i still gotta go back in a week for a minor surgery if it doesnt get any better~

moral of the story...

god hates me~
but he cant kill me so he decides to make me blind during the holidays~


nice man.. real nice....
*points middle finger at the sky~

the eye~

it really hurts, the eye~
its all puffy and looks half closed all the time...

the 1st few days of it wasnt tat bad, it was just uncomfortable... but by the 2nd day, it kept trobbing and would hurt if i so much as blinked...

i couldnt watch tv, couldnt use the computer, couldnt... look at stuff~ i just kept dabbing it with a warm towel like wad the instructions on the internet said and went to sleep... but i couldnt really sleep since it was hurting alot... so, even though i spent 5/8 of the day with my eyes closed, im still pretty shagged...

this morning i woke up, it didnt feel as painful anymore, but its really really poofy now n it looks pretty cool everytime i look in the mirror... like i'd been in a fight or something...

its the 1st time i've every gotten an eye infection thingy b4... i've never even caught "sore eyes" in my life... so its a new experience... usually i just get a fever or the occasional cold, but never something about the eye... i mean, how do u cure something like tat, there's no pill u can take nor is there a cream to apply since u cant just be applying random shit near ur eyes, almost every ointment tells u not too... eyedrops, maybe... but wads the most tat would do anyway~

so i've decided to screw the doctor and just wait it out, continuously dabbin the towel on my eye since tat seemed to work a lil.... i hope it cures by tomoro since i gotta go to sch for a makeup lab...

on a lighter note, the fgf bought me a magical twig from malaysia... so kudos to tat...
went to jared's house to play with cheesedale the other day... i want a kitty so bad -_-


rawr~

nothing happened today -_-

the mct test today was pretty ok, cant say the same for the dynamics one.... it kinda hurts to smoke nowadays... reds are so strong, like friggin cancer sticks man... anyway, with the term tests comin to an end soon, im probably just gonna give'em away seeing as how i dont need'em anymore...

tomoro's the last paper... have yet to start studying for it though cause i've been feelin rather emo for some unknown reason~ bet its the lack of BCM.. -_-

i think i gotta get out more... its been so long since i've gone out and had fun~ i have so many things i wanna do... and with the holidays arriving, i guess i'll have ample time to do them, but i'd probably end up just lazyin around not doing shit just like all the other holidays~

im trying to stall time & not go study... but i gotta.. but i dont wanna.... but i gotta......






but i dun wanna...
wheres my kitty -_-~

lil matchstick girL~ part 2

Reluctant, but surely... she took out a single match from the box and striked it by the side... the ignite startled the lil girL~ but she was quickly mesmerized by its sudden shine and illustrious warmth tat she'd been longing for.....

she stared innocently into the flame's center... following its every movement, its every flicker... it was hypnotic~ The warmth comforted her.... fears of her father slowly began to fade into the dark abyss tat was the night.... in the mits of the lone flame, she began to envision a table, fully laden with food and eatables...

There was mashed potatos and slabs of beef, a beautifully roasted turkey and some irish ale~ She could almost smell it... the juicy armoa of the turkey... the suppleness of the warm ale.... but the flame was soon blown out by the howling winds... and as quickly as it came, the dinning table of food was gone~

she quickly lit the 2nd match with up most anticipation.... this time within the blurr of the light, she saw behind the dinning table, a lavished christmas tree... on it were a million candles, burning ever so kindly~ beside the it stood her dearly departed grandmother, the only person who ever loved her... she smiled blissfully at the lil matchstick girL~ gesturing herto come forth.... she complied~

afraid of loosing this moment, she quickly lit the next match and the next to ensure her dear grandma would never fade.... they sat infront of the window and watched the stars dart across the winter night skys... she remembered her grandma telling her that a shooting star meant a person has passed and gone up to heavens~

Her grandmother gazed deeply into the lil girL's eyes... she spoke of a place where there would be no hunger, where there would be no cold, where there would be no fear~ she urged the lil matchstick girL~ to take her hand so tat she may fly her to this wonderous utopia...

the lil matchstick girL~ upon hearing those words, reached out without hesitation... she could finally be free of her abusive father and be with someone hu she loves n hu loves her....

"come now my child, take my hand...."





*to be continued~

lil matchstick girL~

It was the night of new year's eve...
the 31st December of a year not too long ago....

The city was forced to endure its most numbing of winters.... families cuddled by the fireplace, with blankets over their heads and hot water-bottles tucked btw their legs... they reminise of Summer's heat as they grip their Hot chocolate tightly with both hands...

Outside in the shivering cold, a lil matchstick girL~ wondered... cold and famished with neither hat nor shoes. She treaded through the wind and snow... a single matchbox hugged firmly against her chest... she marched...

the icy winds blew and blew... brushing against her face like sandpaper, her feet, numb and worn, contined to tred through the thick snow... she was afraid to go home, her father would surely beat her if he'd find out she didnt sell any matches today.
the image of her father's belt and his tormenting lashes kept her going on thru the grizzly winter's night....

She managed to find a nook between two buildings where she huddled by herself.... even between concrete, the winter was like a furance of cold, peircing her skin with invisible knives...

her hands had turned a sickly blue and her face was pale like the moon....
she brushed off the twigs & soil from her badly tattered sweater... envious of the passer-bys with their fur coats and winter boots...

she was cold...
& she needed to keep warm~




*to be continued....

13MG TAR 1,0MG Nicotine.. yummy~

i hate sch... 4 weeks ago i couldn't wait to get back... but now its just such a drag... 3 days of 8am lessons a week... ending lessons at 5pm except for wednesday n friday....

plus with the term tests coming next week, everyone's rushing to the labs n libraries to do last minute stuff.... i spent the whole day runnin around like all the others, frantically trying to submit my shit in time...

went to the secret shop to get a pack of smokes... its been a weeks since i had a fix... but didnt have a lighter so i just waited till i got home...

its quite fasinating the wonderous properties of a cigarette... it not some wonderdrug tat magically takes all ur problems away... it just calms u down.... then theres all that crap about lung cancer and shit... well yeah smokin does kill... but so do the pesticides in the salads u eat... besides.. i think i'd die in some other manner, like... fallin off a cliff or something...
plus, i've been eating like a pregent woman these pass few days... i think its cause im dying~

anyway.. i guess should go study or something... its so not-cool to keep failing...
i wanna kill myself but i dont think god will let me...

dont know if SPCA is still on..... im afraid i might kill it or something...
but we could still go to look at the kitties if ur not too tired from camp :)


can someone buy me an ashtray... i just burnt the plastic cover of my book -_-


*stubbs out cig~

boo~

enjoys:

-scaring the lil kiddies at the swimmin pool with my tattoo and makin the parents feel uneasy around me~

-movin my lip piercing about and grossing-out curious on-lookers and (once again...) scaring the lil kiddies :)

-stoning in a corner & giving out an emo aura at the same time, makin ppl around me feel quite uneasy~

-sitting at a vantage point and starring out at ppl.... if they stare back, i'd just tilt my head to an angle n give them tat "wadru lookin at -_-" look with my eyes all wide & crazy lookin....


dislikes:

-having ppl brave enough to fnd out how un-bad-ass i actually am -_-



for everyone else....
u can call me the boggie man~

KITTY!~

tats it.. im gonna get a kitty... cause their so cute n cuddly and i want one...
i dont care wad the mother says.... my birthday's comin so i'll just say its a present from a friend or make up some sob story of how i found it in a box half dead & decided to adopt it outta the kindness of my heart...

gonna head down to the spca next sun with the fake gf~ im gonna get the most cutest one there with fur as black as night and eyes as foreboding as the moon~

im gonna call it some random name like "Turtle~" or "Darth Vader" and feed it milk n cookies all day~

weeeeee!
im so excited~
gonna get a kitty n im not lettin anyone touch it~


RWAR!!!
i mean... meow~

the benefits of a high metabolism rate ~

swam with the turds the other day cause it was really hot n we all just wanted to... plus since its been sorching these past few days, i'd figured i could get a cool tann while im at it...

but seeing as how god hates me n all.... he made it rain and i caught a cold -_- kept sneezin n my nose was running everywhere... but alas, it was nothing a nice bowl of Blk 85's Barr Chorr Meee couldn't cure~ it like my 3rd trip there in a row and im still lovin it...

i swear they put heroin in the BCM..... i ate so much last night.. 1st.. some left over porriage vic's mom made... then the BCM, 2 plates of carrot cake and to top it of... a cup of mashed potatos from 7-Eleven... i like potatos~ lalala

went to Jared's place to play with his kitty cat, hu's unoffical name is now " CHeeseDale" while the other's watched him W.O.W~ kept suckin on my fingers like it was a booob which was really ticklish but so cute~ it could fall alseep just suckin on it...

i kept it warm by covering it with my shirt n kept sayang-ing it... tee hee hee~ so cute lah... i wanted to steal him but then his parents came back n it ran back to jared's sister~

headed home about midnight, took a bath... and fell right to sleep...

Conclusion:
- god hates me~
- heroin was the secret ingredient for 85's BCM...
- Sugar cane & Honey-Lemon is my new favourite drink aside from strawberry milktea :)
- World of Warcraft is stupid -_-
- i want a kitty cat~



rawrrrr~

damn the feeling~

i saw the news today about the bombings in Iraq...
about the shootings of v-tech...
about the riots in taiwan....

i saw the news about the floods in indonesia....
about the ice caps melting...
about the earthquakes in japan....

i saw the news about the rainforest burning and the oil spills..
the animals dying out and the pollution and plauges....

then i saw on tv a picture of a lil girl with no legs smiling....
i smiled too~

the world's ending soon... i can feel it....
dont u?~

~~~~~~~~~~~

this is the squiggly line---> ~

i use it alot..
cause i can....

dont know wad it means or wad its for though... but its... on the keyboard so it must be important~ -_-

i tried googling it but nothing came out... its just there... next to the number 1.... and wats the other symbol on the same button as the squiggly line mean anyway... the "`"... its like a floating comma just tat its pointing the other way... again, nothing turns up when i google it... so, yeah...

i've never seen it used before in a sentence nor do i know wad symbolic meaning it represents... it just looks cool...
and i like it.... so there~


i like juice...
and potatos~


damn the curse of the phones....
squiggle squiggle~

mommy's day~

woke up early and wanted to make mom breakfast but didnt cause we were goin to grandma's place for lunch instead~ it was a really tiring day for me... dont know why.... i kept trying to sleep.. but just ended up lazing around in the bed & not actually falling asleep.....

anyway.. turds came over to check out Sephira~ but they came so late so i chased them off earlier cause i was gonna make mom dinner.... but ended up not doing it cause she wanted to make it-_-

Opended up the bottle of wine i bought a couple of days ago and had a toast.... it was nice...

and so.. here i am... in my room... alone in the dark.. with a glass of wine and Sephira by my side....

i feel so... calm right now~
bored.... but calm.... stupid fake gf wouldnt talk to me so.. wadever....

Tomoro's lesson's at 8 in the morning, i hate mondays... guess i'll just keep pouring more wine n enjoy wats left of this sunday~




cheers~

its coming~

reached sch at 8.05am this morning for mac tech but Rick made me wait for him so we could go in together... the basterd arrived at 8.40am and by then those engineering instructor ppl had already started so they didnt allow us to participate.... the choices were to sit at a corner and "self-study" for 4 hrs... or leave and be marked "absent"...

we choose the latter....

it was 9+ and too early to go anywhere... decided to go watch a movie or something to kill time since it was dumb to go home straight away... but we decided to go ikea cause i needed a comfy chair and some curtains to block out the glare from my window when im on sephira~ which... IS COMING TOMOROW!

reached there at like... 930-ish... but the place wasnt like... open yet.. so we ate at there 1st... u know... tat big canteen place tat sells the cool meatballs.... yeah... there was this set meal thingy tat costs onli a dollar... with free coffee refills.... sweeet~

by 10.30 the place was allowed access so we went in..... walked around and saw lots of cool shit.... there were like.. tons of useless stuff i wanted to buy just to make my room look cool.. but.. im poor so....yeah~

Anyway... since i didnt really know the measurements of my window, i couldnt get the curtains but i got this really spiffy chair at $98 bucks...


and a floor lamp at $19.. doesnt come with the bulb though....

it felt really cool buying furniture for yrself.... the journey back was a real bitch... had to carry the friggin box all the way home.... but it was really cool fixing everything up and stuff.. it was like lego~

Tomorow i'll be heading down to Sim Lim with the Uncle to get the parts to upgrade sophia~ and buy W.O.W~ cause i have no life~... dont judge me -_-

i've been goin up to my mom every 15 mins saying "ITS COMING!" to her and waving my fists in the air~ she just shoos me off... but i'll be nice since mommy's day is in 2 days....

im so excited.... she's coming.... Sephira's coming~


*faints~

the perfect girL~

i had a weird dream last night.... it goes like this.....

there was this lil lion the size of.. i dunno... maybe a bowling ball... and it was living in my bedroom... and like, i was afraid to touch it but i wanted to keep it as a pet... but then one day it goes all crazy n starts biting my hand..

so then, i went n told my mom about it... who then suggests that maybe i should feed it... so i feed it a plate of Char Siew and Otak~ then placed it bedroom floor with a bowl of water and left... then when i came back, the plate n bowl was empty and the mini lion was gone...

yeeeahhh.... -_-
thats the dream~

(not onli is it one of the most weirdest and amusing dreams i've had.. its also got nothing to do with the title of this post.... i just figured i'd share it cause its my blog n i do wat i want with it... so there~ )

anyway, on the way home i saw "Emo Chick~", "girL~ From the Bus #2" and "Calender girL~" all at bus stop... it seemed to me tat it was kinda like a sign from above tellin me to go up and talk to one of them or something....

i played the whole "i-stare-at-u, u-stare-at-me" thing with them before so they recongize me but they dont actually know me~ hopefully that'll change soon... all i need is just the right opportunity to be able to chat one up.... but there has yet to be one of those moments.. so.. yeah... but its cool... i'll just wait...~

but in case any of u ladies feel a lil impatient... i decided to make a list of wad my version of a perfect girL~ would be....

the perfect girL's race is unknown really.... but if she were malay, she wouldnt be wearing a Tudong and if she were chinese,she wouldnt be one of those "ching-chiong-chang" types tat act jap and speak chinese all day.....

instead, perfect girL~ would have an uber cool accent... maybe british or american... oh doesnt matter their both equally hot~ She'd have the sweetest eyes to go along with her sugar-coated voice.... her scent would be tat of summer's breeze leaving and winter's chill foreboding~

perfect girL~ would be slim, and beautiful.... her hair would be long and smooth and it'd lay across her face, covering one eye ever so seductively~ she'd be really smart and open-minded.. when we're together, i'd be able to do dumb stuff around her & she'd just laugh instead of thinking how weird i am...

Perfect girL~ would be close with her family memebers... she'd have a lil sister and a brother & a dog named December~ She'll know how to cook, and how to take care of herself and her family.....

Perfect girL~ would be rich and live in a mansion up on the Hills~ she'd be one of those artsy types tat enjoy painting and trips to the museum ... she'll have the same taste in music as i do and plays the piano~

perfect girL~ would lay with me instead of run for shelter when it rains in the middle of our picnic... she'd rest her head on my shoulders during a Michael Buble concert and hold my hand tightly during a scary movie~

Perfect girL's kisses would be as soft as rose pedels and sweet like the smile of a newborn... her touch, warm like the summer and fresh like the spring~

:)

Perfect girL~ sounds really great... cause she's smart and sweet and ... well... perfect~

Perfect girL is also not real.... but that's never seemed to bother me since one's never existed before in the first place~ but its alright.... its all good.... :)

ooh.. if any of u ladies fit this describition... dont hesitate to call~

555-if-only-it-were-this-easy~

tsk~