stopdrop&roll~

i hate my vocation...
its soo friggin stupid, i do nothing all day except sweep the floor for 10 mins a day then its back to the staff room to stone n do NOTHING!

im loosin my mind, everyday i wake up at 5am n take 2 buses n a train to the airbase to do NOTHING! i reach there n from 8am-5pm all i do is come out when theres food otherwise i do NOTHING! according to the sgts, our trainin starts on the 16th... but its still just gonna be like one mission every fortnight so in between tat time its still gonna be hours of me just doing NOTHING!!

im flippin out from all the NOT-DOING-ANYTHING thing! i REFUSE to spend the remaining 1 1/2 years of my ns life bummin around, sweepin the floor n playing with sand while all my other friends are dying in the ARMOUR DIV.

i thought it would be cool at 1st.. sure, who wouldnt wanna have a 8-5 job where all u do is NOTHING n blow aircon all day... i dunno wad's wrong with me either but i am going crazy.. i really am...

i hate wasting my time like this... n i seriously wanna change to a Combat unit... sure its gonna be tough but at least u get to train, u get to travel, u get to shot big guns n blow shit up...

beats fillin up holes in the road once every 2 weeks...
i hate wasting my time like this... i hate doing NOTHING!

but accordin to the sgt, if i request a change in unit, its like a 90% chance i'll end up as a Regimental Police(RP).. i'd just shoot myself then if tat ever happened-_-

so im stuck here... doing NOTHING... learning maybe a lil of something but ultimatly doing mostly NOTHING~

the onli good thing bout this vocation from wad i hear from the staff, is tat it gives u a great opportunity to continue ur studies or take up some night classes... last time i checked i onli had my 'O's, so im definiatly gonna use this opportunity... i refuse to just waste my time there n bum off the next 19 mths of my time here in this place -_-

at least once i get out i'd have something to show for n not have wasted my time doing NOTHING!!!

i miss holdin a weapon :(
its like im not a real solider anymore!!
its gonna be like this for the next 19 mths...

im goin outta my mind!!



SOMEBODY SAVE ME~!!!!!!!!!!!!!